I have the biggest headache ever and im my day was *blah* It was actually not to bad.. I kinda talked to Josh today.... god i fall for his smile every time i see him...its so beautiful... geez im so pathetic..but i dont give a fuck. some of my friends are driving me absolutly insane lately and keep asking me how *wolfe and I are* i think its cool they care about my love life (or whatever u wanna call it) its just everryydayyy, every block, and then they kill me with questions about "us" and i mean god, i *love* talking about him and thinking about him... i just dont wanna talk about the things that they wanna talk about alllll the time. Its kinda outta control and i dont like that... Another thing that kinda makes me crazy is talking about him so much and then not seeing him as much... its so stupid because talking about him makes me like him even more and i guess thats not a bad thing.. but according to leesha it is... (thats a whole differnt complicating depressing story there) I just wanna be in his arms and not have to worry about all this stupid shit.. (sorry i just had to vent) im like shaking and i havent eaten anything all day.. but i dont wanna.. i just feel so strange and upset and confused.. i cant explain it... I have a couple friends telling me i should do something then then other telling me the complete opposite of it...(yea its about josh). and its something i dont even need to worry about yet, its just so fucking stupid and i just want it to stop... i really do.. i shouldnt have to be worrying about this and the next person that says anything about it going to be punched in the face (excluding him) Its between josh and i... my god.. what a day :( now i have to go help out at danielle CCD and thats gunna a shit load of fun... ugh those kids better not get in my way (god i sound like such a bitch.. oops) im just definitely not in the mood to deal with there shit. Its been a really weird day and i just wanna cry.... -michelle