Im just sitting here in flex, thinking about last night. I was so upset... all over something so dumb. I had a very short convo with *someone* and its kinda hard to explain, but *that someone* said something that i kinda knew was true, but i just kinda thought it was what people said.. well, as confusing as that sounds, it really made me think about how special this person was to me. I didnt get mad, well, not really, just really sad and put up an away message and layed down n listened to my norah jones CD. God, i was so upset.. i guess leesha's right. lol yea i said it, leesha's right. im so stupid.. really i am. why the fuck would i ever think he could change. And its not like i really wanted him to change, but its more that i thought i was differnt and meant something to him. Well, the joke was on me... worse part is, i like him.. a lot and i cant see me, not liking him. In my eyes he's so great and leesha has always been telling me that i`ll get hurt - i`ll get hurt -- hes not worth it -- blah blah blah.. and i never once listened.. but god, maybe she knows what shes talking about.. ugh i dunno, i just think he deserves someone better then me anyways, so maybe i should just give up,.... which is much easier said then done.. fuck it