I feel so.. ugh, i cant even begin to explain it. So much is running through my mind right now. The guy I really, realllly like is known to be a "player" or whatever and my best friends are warning me to get over and forget about him. But they dont know him like i do and when its just josh and i --its so fuckin easy to talk to him and when im in his arms i feel in heaven. But its so crazy because Travis really hates i like him and he thinks im seriously going to get hurt and that i`m "so blind". But what does he know? :P jkjk Travis is an amazing guy and i love it that he cares, but i dont know if he what hes talking about. He promises me over and over i`ll get hurt and a shit load of other stuff, its so funny. I love that guy to death! but then... Theres all that going on with Josh, which is really weird.. and one day im sittin in one of my classes just thinking (I cant say which one lol) about the whole situation with him and all the sudden :: this guy :: and i start just messing around, having some laughs and i totally forgot about josh. It was so strange, but definitely not a bad feeling.. i guess. The last couple of nights i`ve just been layin in bed and usually when im stressing or even sometimes obsessing (lol) over josh (Depending on the night), I start thinking about the fun times and the feeling i get when in spending time with this other guy and i get this really big smile on my face. This ::other guy:: is awesome. He's smart, funny, cute, and so much fun to flirt with haha oh and he works out (i LOVE a guy with musucles.. im pretty sure thats my weakness Lol!) Before leesha even knew i liked this guy she said to me *michelle, you seriously need to give up on mr. player and if i could put you with anyone it would be :: this guy:: haha honest to god this was before i even told her. lol i guess she knows me better then i think.. thats kinda scary ;D xoxoxo-xoxo? -- well, im gunna go think about things, michelle