Today was awesome yet terrible. I have so many things running thru my mind.. its driving me crazy. Guys are so damn confusing =< ugh... and but travis is really helping me and with him i can just *talk* about anything really and he seems to understands and tell me how it is< hes definitely an awesome friend! But theres no way i can forget about tim when i talk about awesome friends. He's the absolute greatest too. I`m really lucky to have them there and just feel comfortable saying really anything to them. they are so amazing! bbbuutt, today after gym i was seriously going to kill travis.. haha he wouldnt let me talk to josh. (we all walk the same way to class) he said that i need to get over him so i couldnt even look at him.. and i didnt do that very well..hehe oh god.. josh is *so* great.. but travis *REALLY* thinks im going to get hurt.. ugh wtf? i barely even hang out with josh anymore... but i guess hes right about one thing.. i shouldnt focus all my attention on something that isnt ever gunna happen... =< even tho i really wish it would.. but then again..... i havent told travis about the other guy im starting to fall for.. but of course i told tim.. i seriously tell that one *everything*. But oh god, if he tells a soul. i`ll kill him~~ i trust him tho.. really, i do. so thats one confusing thing in my life right now *gotta love the guys* and then theres a bunch of other shit thats going on too... but if i start to type it.. i`ll start crying.. and i really dont wanna go there tonite. =( well, thinking happier thoughts ~ the guy im falling for has been wonderful. He's s00o damn cute and guess what * leesha approves * haha cant say that about mr. josh now can i? lol oh well, i`ll always have a place in my heart for that one no matter what anyone else says, people talk so much shit too.. thats another thing that pisses me off. Josh is amazing and in my eyes~ perfect (Oh and travis told me to think about the things i dont like about josh... but um, i cant think of anything lol) wlel im going to make miss gina 0gina a Cd.. always ~ michelle