I was so almost over josh.. geez, so close. Then i had to go and IM him and of course now im back to square one. (well, actually there is still hope to get over him) but the thing is.. do i want 2? i mean, * i like to like him * it gives me a reason and wake up and smile and even tho i sound so stupid, its alll so true. I dont care if he is a flirt.. i mean he *is* a guy and everything... and i have a feeling my other crush, who doesnt know who he is, is going to find out soon. I think i told the wrong person.. =/ I really thought i could trust *this person* too. Well, at least now i know if i dont want anyone to know, i wont tell this dear friend of mine =( Even my god damn teacher knows because *someone* wrote *MB+_ _* on my desk. hmm i wonder who that was.. ugh, this sucks. well, im going to sleep.. if i cant fall asleep i might write more because i have a lot running thru my mind right now.... xo i love you always, michelle