yes i deffinitaly feel fulfilled!!!! read my last entry and after that u have to read this!!! its awsome!!! SeEiFiCaRe07: WHAT COW BOY THiNG? FrOggYfRoG722: in the car FrOggYfRoG722: some one said when i said i would ahve hi take lauren u thought i meant u FrOggYfRoG722: but it wasnt it was lauren bear SeEiFiCaRe07: NO; i WASNT EVEN SURE WHAT U WERE TALKiNG ABOUT FrOggYfRoG722: oo i didnt figure u would have ne clue but kelsey told me that u looked at zack and everythig was quite FrOggYfRoG722: so i wanst sure SeEiFiCaRe07: NO THAT WAS ABOUT ALL THE STUFF U WERE SAYiNG BEHiND MY BACK FrOggYfRoG722: o i just started talkin about u b/c i knew u were listneing SeEiFiCaRe07: NO, i THiNK THAT U WERE TALKiNG ABOUT ME BECAUSE U DiDN'T WANT ME TO GO FrOggYfRoG722: i didnt ' FrOggYfRoG722: b/c u wer never invited FrOggYfRoG722: and it was time we ahd wit brandon wit out u FrOggYfRoG722: but i wasnt mean enought to tell u u couldnt go SeEiFiCaRe07: i DONT REALLY THiNK THAT ME BEiNG THERE WOULD HAVE CHANGED ANYTHiNG WiTH BRANDON.. FrOggYfRoG722: and now u no what if feel like b/c evey one knows that u talk about them behing there backs FrOggYfRoG722: and u always wispher to zack SeEiFiCaRe07: ACTUALLY i STOPPED DOiNG THAT STUFF A LONG TiME AGO, iVE CHANGED A LOT JUST EVERYONE REFUSES TO NOTiCE iT FrOggYfRoG722: and no one knows what u r sayin so u cant get mad at me SeEiFiCaRe07: WHEN i WHiSPER TO ZACK iM SAYiNG THiNGS LiKE "i HEAR MORE THAN THEY THiNK" SeEiFiCaRe07: i DONT TALK ABOUT ANYONE BEHiND THEiR BACKS ANYMORE... FrOggYfRoG722: ok well like i tge librart FrOggYfRoG722: at school FrOggYfRoG722: at lunch when peeps arent evern talking about u SeEiFiCaRe07: WAiT; WHAT? FrOggYfRoG722: u always used to whisper to him at lunch and in history FrOggYfRoG722: when me and brandon were sitting right there SeEiFiCaRe07: WHiSPERiNG DOESN'T MEAN THAT i AM TALKiNG ABOUT SOMEONE KOURTNEY FrOggYfRoG722: i no that but do u FrOggYfRoG722: b/c evetime i whispered to n e one u wer listen today SeEiFiCaRe07: AND EVERYTiME i LiSTENED iT WAS ABOUT ME FrOggYfRoG722: and most of the time it wasnt abotu u b/c the world does not revolve around u FrOggYfRoG722: i was talkina bout caleb and alex FrOggYfRoG722: most of the time FrOggYfRoG722: thank u FrOggYfRoG722: what i said this mornin was true FrOggYfRoG722: i dont hate u FrOggYfRoG722: but when u showed up even after i talked to u and told u about u always bein wit him i lost all respect b/c that is ignorant SeEiFiCaRe07: i DON'T THiNK THAT iT DOES REVOLVE AROUND ME; BUT WHEN i LiSTENED U WERE SAYiNG THiNGS LiKE WAS SHETALKiNG ABOUT ME AND STUFF FrOggYfRoG722: and when i was talkin abot u i didnt care if u heard me!!!!! SeEiFiCaRe07: iT WASN'T MY iDEA TO GO TO RiVERCHASE..THAT WAS KELLY'S AND i DiDN'T GO UP THERE TO SEE BRANDON, i WENT UP THERE TO SEE EVERYONE ELSE AS WELL FrOggYfRoG722: i no FrOggYfRoG722: and i get that FrOggYfRoG722: but u didnt leave wit kelleu FrOggYfRoG722: is the point FrOggYfRoG722: how did u excpect to get home/? SeEiFiCaRe07: i DiDN'T KNOW THAT i WASNT WELCOME TO SEE EVERYONE ELSE AS WELL. FrOggYfRoG722: u were FrOggYfRoG722: but how did u excect to get home?? FrOggYfRoG722: b/c u didnt ask n e one for a ride SeEiFiCaRe07: iF U GUYS WEREN'T DOiNG ANYTHiNG AFTERWARDS i WOULD HAVE CALLED MY PARENTS OR ASKED SOMEONE iF THEY COULD HAVE TAKED ME HOME TOO FrOggYfRoG722: exactly we were doin somtin afterwords SeEiFiCaRe07: BUT SiNCE EVERYONE WAS GOiNG TO STEAK N SHAKE N EVERYONE WAS GOiNG WiTH U, i THOUGHT THAT EVERYONE iNCLUDED ME TOO FrOggYfRoG722: befor u go thtere FrOggYfRoG722: we made these plans FrOggYfRoG722: wit the peeps who were origonaly invited FrOggYfRoG722: to the meet SeEiFiCaRe07: BUT WHEN i GOT THERE AND i ASKED WHAT THEY WERE DOiNG AFTER THE MEET EVERYONE SAiD THAT THEY DiDN'T KNOW FrOggYfRoG722: i countedeverone in front of u to make it obvouse u wrent invted FrOggYfRoG722: but i didnt want to say n e thing b/c it didnt bug me that much SeEiFiCaRe07: SO i THOUGHT THAT iT WAS JUST AN iDEA WHiLE U GUYS WERE AT THE MEET FrOggYfRoG722: but it did other peeps FrOggYfRoG722: well general;ly asking if u cna go is a good idea SeEiFiCaRe07: i DiDN'T KNOW i NEEDED TO FrOggYfRoG722: well its common curtasy SeEiFiCaRe07: NOT iF THE PERSON THOUGHT THAT THEY COULD GO ANYWAYS FrOggYfRoG722: but not that many peeps think that they r attomatically invited FrOggYfRoG722: b/c they randomly show up ther FrOggYfRoG722: and who else there were u actually friend wit besides brandon and zack?? SeEiFiCaRe07: LOOK; iM SORRY iF i MADE OTHER PEOPLE UNCOMFORTABLE WiTH ME BEiNG THERE, N SORRY iF i iNTRUDED ON UR TiME WiTH BRANDON..BUT AT THE TiME i DiDN'T THiNK ANYTHiNG OF ME BEiNG THERE AND GOiNG TO STEAK N SHAKE WiTH EVERYONE ELSE TOO FrOggYfRoG722: it ok SeEiFiCaRe07: i DONT DELiBERATELY TRY TO DO THiNGS WiTH BRANDON SO U CANT DO ANYTHiNG WiTH HiM FrOggYfRoG722: but i just took it really hard that u didnt get the hint this mornin that u needed to spen less time wit him FrOggYfRoG722: what about jessi? and ur other friends SeEiFiCaRe07: i DiDNT REALiZE THAT WE ALL HAD A CERTAiN AMOUNT OF TiME TO HANG OUT WiTH BRANDON FrOggYfRoG722: we dont FrOggYfRoG722: but ur the only one that is always wit him SeEiFiCaRe07: ME AND ZACK WOULD JUST HAVE iDEAS TO DO SOMETHiNG THE NEXT DAY AND WE WOULD iNViTE BRANDON TO GO; AND HE WOULD FrOggYfRoG722: b/c we all have other peeps to hang out wit FrOggYfRoG722: u dont invite n e one else though FrOggYfRoG722: what about jessi and al the peeps u were friends wit before??? SeEiFiCaRe07: iM STiLL FRiENDS WiTH THEM; i JUST DONT HANG OUT WiTH THEM ALL THE TiME FrOggYfRoG722: caust sence u got back u have been wit brandon or kelly or zack eveyday FrOggYfRoG722: so when have u actually hung out wt them SeEiFiCaRe07: NOT SiNCE iVE BEEN BACK NO FrOggYfRoG722: ok SeEiFiCaRe07: BUT iVE BEEN BACK FOR A WEEK FrOggYfRoG722: well mayb they miss u@@ FrOggYfRoG722: i no FrOggYfRoG722: that FrOggYfRoG722: u text brandont right when u got home SeEiFiCaRe07: CUZ i HAD TEXTES ON MY FONE FROM HiM SeEiFiCaRe07: WHiLE i WAS GONE FrOggYfRoG722: i no i dont care baout that FrOggYfRoG722: i was just tellin uy that i knew how long u had been bakc FrOggYfRoG722 (11:56:44 PM): but the truth is i dont hate u but i dont understand u very much b/c u say that u ahve changed but u dont seem n e differnet FrOggYfRoG722 (11:57:06 PM): b/c the last itme u talked about someone was apparently brandon and tah wasnt that long ago SeEiFiCaRe07 (11:57:57 PM): BRANDON TALKED BEHiND MY BACK TOO; AND THE STUFF i SAiD ABOUT BRANDON WAS DURiNG SCHOOL THAT DiDNT GET BROUGHT UP UNTiL i WAS ON VACATiON; AND THAT EVEN GOT BiGGER THAN MOST OF THE STUFF i HAD SAiD FrOggYfRoG722 (11:58:35 PM): welll brandont talking was differnt b.c he didnt like u really hated u when he talked about u and u were friend when u did it FrOggYfRoG722 (12:00:49 AM): SeEiFiCaRe07 (12:00:21 AM): WE WERE FRiENDS BUT THE STUFF i SAiD WASN'T STUFF THAT i THOUGHT WAS TRUE AND DiDN'T MEAN FOR iT TO MAKE HiM GET UPSET OR ANYTHiNG FrOggYfRoG722 (12:00:46 AM): if u didnt think it was true y did u waste ur breath beachbuddy1220 (12:01:34 AM): haha FrOggYfRoG722 (12:01:45 AM): i no its good FrOggYfRoG722 (12:01:56 AM): SeEiFiCaRe07 (12:01:11 AM): WELL BY TRUE i WAS SAYiNG STUFF THAT i MEANT SeEiFiCaRe07 (12:01:29 AM): THE STUFF i SAiD WASNT STUFF THAT i REALLY MEANT FrOggYfRoG722 (12:01:50 AM): then y did u say it>> FrOggYfRoG722 (12:03:04 AM): SeEiFiCaRe07 (12:02:39 AM): CUZ THEY WERE JOKES AND EVERYONE DOES iT FrOggYfRoG722 (12:03:28 AM): o really well zack must ahve missed the funny part of the JOKE b.c jokes r funny ?right? when he told brandon FrOggYfRoG722 (12:04:17 AM): SeEiFiCaRe07 (12:04:09 AM): WELL WHEN i SAiD iT ZACK LAUGHED FrOggYfRoG722 (12:04:37 AM): probaly b/c he thought it was true and b/c u wre laughin FrOggYfRoG722 (12:05:14 AM): FrOggYfRoG722 (12:05:34 AM): there r alot of things u say taht r mean that i laught at that i think r u true FrOggYfRoG722 (12:05:41 AM): so they might b jokes to FrOggYfRoG722 (12:06:15 AM): SeEiFiCaRe07 (12:06:05 AM): i HAVEN'T SAiD ANYTHiNG MEAN iN FOR AWHiLE SeEiFiCaRe07 (12:06:33 AM): NOT ABOUT SOMEONE THAT i KNOW N AM FRiENDS WiTH FrOggYfRoG722 (12:06:38 AM): since tah last time i was wit u for fun which was the week b4 school ended FrOggYfRoG722 (12:08:20 AM): FrOggYfRoG722 (12:08:01 AM): u have dug urself into a whole soo big u coudl never geet out!! its gunna take a lot of convincing for u to get peeps to believe that u have changed FrOggYfRoG722 (12:08:28 AM): and if u want peeps to believe it u might wannna start heloing out and convingcing them FrOggYfRoG722 (12:08:41 AM): b/c that the only way it gunna get done and that is even gunna b hard FrOggYfRoG722 (12:09:22 AM): SeEiFiCaRe07 (12:08:52 AM): WELL NiCOLE THiNKS THAT iVE CHANGED AND SO DOES KRiSTA AND ZACK FrOggYfRoG722 (12:09:06 AM): ok FrOggYfRoG722 (12:09:28 AM): well that hard to believe b/c i was wit them today FrOggYfRoG722 (12:09:31 AM): but what ever FrOggYfRoG722 (12:09:35 AM): i really dont care FrOggYfRoG722 (12:09:44 AM): im just saying it might b hard SeEiFiCaRe07 (12:09:48 AM): NiCOLE TOLD ME TONiGHT THAT SHE THOUGHT THAT FrOggYfRoG722 (12:09:56 AM): SeEiFiCaRe07 (12:09:48 AM): NiCOLE TOLD ME TONiGHT THAT SHE THOUGHT THAT FrOggYfRoG722 (12:10:18 AM): and when has nicole been wit besided monday in the lasy week?? FrOggYfRoG722 (12:10:24 AM): sinc u have so called changed FrOggYfRoG722 (12:10:37 AM): SeEiFiCaRe07 (12:10:51 AM): RiGHT; i DiDNT SAY iT WAS GOiNG TO BE EASY, BUT MOST OF THE TiME PEOPLE DONT EVEN NOTiCE THAT i AM TRYiNG TO CHANGE EVEN iF iT TAKES AWHiLE SeEiFiCaRe07 (12:10:57 AM): i TALK TO NiCOLE A LOT FrOggYfRoG722 (12:11:01 AM): ok FrOggYfRoG722 (12:11:04 AM): me tow FrOggYfRoG722 (12:11:06 AM): two FrOggYfRoG722 (12:11:35 AM): FrOggYfRoG722 (12:11:22 AM): u just proved my point FrOggYfRoG722 (12:11:23 AM): thank u FrOggYfRoG722 (12:11:39 AM): its not gunna b easy and obvoulsy not ath many peeps ahve noticed FrOggYfRoG722 (12:11:56 AM): so i would recomend trying a lil but harder!!! beachbuddy1220 (12:12:22 AM): is that what youre really saying to her? FrOggYfRoG722 (12:12:23 AM): FrOggYfRoG722 (12:12:22 AM): u cant say ne thign to back urself up FrOggYfRoG722 (12:12:30 AM): b/c u no that i just proved my pouint FrOggYfRoG722 (12:12:49 AM): and im not tryin to b a bitch im actually tryin to help beachbuddy1220 (12:12:35 AM): this is great FrOggYfRoG722 (12:13:23 AM): SeEiFiCaRe07 (12:13:14 AM): YAH; UR HELPiNG ME LOTS...BEiNG SO NiCE ABOUT iT AND ALL SeEiFiCaRe07 (12:13:20 AM): i HAVENT DONT ANYTHiNG TO U KOURTNEY FrOggYfRoG722 (12:13:24 AM): i dont need ot b nive FrOggYfRoG722 (12:13:33 AM): i get my point across SeEiFiCaRe07 (12:13:34 AM): AND iVE APOLOGiZED FOR EVERYTHiNG i HAVE DONE FrOggYfRoG722 (12:13:51 AM): yea but when somone does somtin to my friend its ironic but iget pissed FrOggYfRoG722 (12:14:01 AM): SeEiFiCaRe07 (12:14:07 AM): HE SEEMS TO FORGiVE ME FrOggYfRoG722 (12:14:07 AM): i dont care u think im mean FrOggYfRoG722 (12:14:18 AM): but u need ot convince peeps FrOggYfRoG722 (12:14:26 AM): b/c not that many people are SeEiFiCaRe07 (12:14:31 AM): i DONT THiNK UR MEAN FrOggYfRoG722 (12:15:09 AM): FrOggYfRoG722 (12:14:49 AM): and i want them to b FrOggYfRoG722 (12:14:57 AM): b'/c u r fun to hang out wit FrOggYfRoG722 (12:15:25 AM): but i no peeps that u ahve pulled away from all fo ther freinds and then ditched them by being a bitch FrOggYfRoG722 (12:15:29 AM): and that is not kewl FrOggYfRoG722 (12:16:12 AM): SeEiFiCaRe07 (12:16:09 AM): YAH..AND i REGRET DOiNG ALL THAT; AND iVE APOLOGiZED FOR iT AND AM CHANGiNG BECAUSE OF iT FrOggYfRoG722 (12:16:23 AM): u no exactly what it takes to get what u want FrOggYfRoG722 (12:16:41 AM): and u do waht it takes reguardless of what that action might b FrOggYfRoG722 (12:17:42 AM): FrOggYfRoG722 (12:17:22 AM): i no how to get what iwant to SeEiFiCaRe07 (12:17:27 AM): i DONT KNOW WHAT U WANT ME TO SAY; i KNOW WHAT i HAVE DONE, AND iVE TOLD U iM TRYiNG AND AM CHANGiNG. AND i KNOW THAT iTS GONNA TAKE AWHiLE AND iTS NOT GONNA BE EASY. SeEiFiCaRe07 (12:17:32 AM): WHAT ELSE DO U WANT TO HEAR? FrOggYfRoG722 (12:17:45 AM): but it requires thinking about what hte outcome is FrOggYfRoG722 (12:17:51 AM): nuttin SeEiFiCaRe07 (12:17:55 AM): AND RECENTLY i HAVE BEEN FrOggYfRoG722 (12:17:58 AM): nothing u say is gunna ti make me happy FrOggYfRoG722 (12:18:14 AM): FrOggYfRoG722 (12:18:34 AM): its ur actions not words FrOggYfRoG722 (12:18:44 AM): and it is like aht for most peeps FrOggYfRoG722 (12:19:07 AM): SeEiFiCaRe07 (12:18:51 AM): OK FrOggYfRoG722 (12:18:54 AM): yea FrOggYfRoG722 (12:19:16 AM): and im goin to leave now!! i leave u wit one hint FrOggYfRoG722 (12:19:30 AM): << tonight think about what u can do to convince peeps<<<< FrOggYfRoG722 (12:19:32 AM): buhbye i love myself i think i have the best personality ever!! LOL good times good times!!! ~*kisses*~ korkie