Ok so i think i really pissed courtney off. and im scared. like.. i honestly thought i was gunna die and i think thomas did to. and it scares me. b/c now her fon is off. and we dont no where she is. and he called me and was like flipping out. and i dont no birdgets number. so i was like ok well she calmed down after she dropped u off. she was no longer insian. but im still scared b/c once she was alone maybe she was agian. b/c i no that i have been like that. when i get upset in my car i cry and i drive fast. i have almost killed myself before.. on the curvy roads by alex's. and by avalon hills. its scary. and i just dont want anything to be wrong. so thomas is supost to call me when she gets to his house so i hope that she is there and he just forgot. but she honestly was okish more after she dropped me off. and when i was talkig to him that i what i said. but omg. but it just dawned on me that i have been like this before. ok i am offically freaking out. i really fucking wish i had a car. hope.