Haloween was awsome. coles was fun. brandon was there :/ I hugged him lets say 283743 times through out the night. and u no waht i dont care what he thinks about it. i just dont care. if he thinks im annoying..or if he loves me for it. i introduced him to pot. so what now. He just used to be so much of me. like i never went a day with out talking to him. and im fine now. like now i go most days with out even thinking about him. or well dweelling on him. everyday i wonder if he is ok. or if he is happy. b/c i care. we were there so much for each other. he was my only strength in fenton in eight grade. and i he doesnt no this but he is part of the reason i am still alive now. after Monday. i wonder if maybe he could be replaced. The history and the depth wont be there. but the personality is o so similar. and well i would want to be best friends with this other guy. maybe he could be replaced. maybe? although i dont want to think of it as replacement..more so....a new close guy friend. b.c i no noone could ever be my beaver..no one can do that. as no one can be my david, or ice skating, or kellymegankylieemilykatie, or my friends now. No one in my life is replaceable. grantide i would rather be with my friensd now then kellymegankylieemilykatie, but i mean it isnt exactly replacment. i dunno.. i have just been thinking.