still sad, mar isnt home, she wont be until tomorrow. i told him i couldnt talk to him, well now he thinks i dont want to be his friend, i do!! I DO I DO I DO! with everything ive got I DO! why life so hard? because i make it? no! why cant it be like a gummy worm, as i am eating them now. last night it took me 2 and half hours trying to fall asleep, but i couldnt. i had too many tears in my eyes.