i am waiting for lauren to come over so we can pick up harley from grandma's.

grandpa has cancer, prostate and there's a mass on his nose. we find out more information in a month. he's holding up pretty well.

i look at pictures from last summer, and it feels like a totally different life. isn't it funny how just 10 months ago we were telling eachother we loved one another? since you have left i don't really feel the same, i don't look at things like i used to, nothing sounds the same, i don't feel love like i used to.

August 9th of 2010, your spirit was carried away from me, yet your memory still lingers with me when i blink, when i look at the dark sky at night, and when i dream, you are everywhere i go. people say the worst is over, yet i don't think so because i need to live the rest of my life without you. we had a stronger bond than most grandparents do with their grandchildren, we were best friends. there's a hole in my heart in the shape of you. i will always want what i cannot hold, you. i miss your beautiful face, your amazing laugh, the way you used to say my name, and mostly your love. i only wish to be 1/3 of the person you were. i will miss you more than anyone will ever understand. i can only hope that one day we will be together again, i will always look for you under the stars my friend. i love you, i'll always be your baby.