todd and i broke up early last summer. somethings aren't forever. actually, everything isnt. since then, i have dated Eric and Rob. Eric was the best to me. Rob was just a mistake. Michael and i aren't friends. we will never be again. same with Jeff. my cousin Christopher is a good kid, we don't even look at eachother anymore. i have other friends. Krystle, Kla, Angie, Jill and others. i drink and smoke. its terrible but its something to ease the pain. we're all addicted to something to ease the pain. my sweet 16 is coming. my parents are officially getting divorced. i have turned into my mother. and my sister is not herself anymore. she will never be again. she is looking forward to florida and i look forward to the bottom of the beer bottle. my friend angie is going out with todd. he's different. i am different. reading all those entries, it brings back memories, but it brings back the side of me i wish to never see again. i spend my time wisely, getting wasted with the ones i love, and making new friends by the bowl. my sister is everything to me. due to no boyfriend. i must attend to her lovely face. let the boy come to me. not run to him.