got back from camping today...saw krissy and amber went with Ann and had a blast....missed todd like crazy... when i got home, i expected no one to be home...and for me to take a nap...but nope..had to do work... then went to aunt jo's for her birthday...mom was pissing everyone off. even though it wasn't her family, she was making a fool of herself...uncle steve saw me yelling at her and he yelled at me...he doesn't know whats going on...no one that side of the family does, but katie...so I went into the bathroom and cried...she thought she was having a good time but we weren't...so I cried...until there were no more tears.. well i didn't just cry over that...i cried over the fact i won't be with him..i know it. and i know he don't like me...no one can change that... i don't know what to do... i mean no matter what him and i are going to be friends...but i don't think about anything more.... but even being friends hurt