well its been awhile, almost a year. todd &angie finally broke up. he came back. i thought i still loved him but i didn't. last may i got a DWI with my best friends car. i used to party all the time. but i can't anymore. its getting old. over the summer i met this great guy, zak shaw. he was great, his family knew my family. we were the perfect italian couple. it all came to an end though. too soon. he was practically the best thing that ever happened to me. the night he broke up with me, it was raining, i got out of his truck, &as he pulled away, i fell in the grass &cried there for a half hour. i finally had to pick myself up &go inside. i left my mother a note, asking her to leave me alone for a couple days. i cried myself to sleep that night. my mom came in my room, after seeing the note. she didn't bother to ask, she just held me as i cried. she already knew. i could barely pick myself up in the morning. somedays i laid in bed for hours, sometimes all day. i was totally heartbroken. its been 4 months, since that night. &i think about him everyday, begging for him to come back. but he won't. i called him on holidays, no response. i text him a couple days ago, i told him i wanted to see him in person, to end everything, so i can move on. he said yeah. so this weekend, we are supposed to meet up. but he has yet to let me know whats going on. i think its bull shit. i did nothing wrong. i want to let him go so bad, but i can't. i don't know why.