i dont know what to wirte at all.. there's always two things in my head when i'm writing in this journal, like should i write for the people to read or should i write for my own sake... well i decide i will just wirte for my own sake since most probably none i know will ever read this shit... well i ussually only write for my own self...almost as much as i like talking to my self.. fuck probably i seem like retarded..but i guess talking to oneself is quite a normal usual thing to do...hey i dont really do it in public.. shit! this sux a lot! i'll make a new entry!