first day of school, my schedule sucks, my classes suck, this sucks. buts its only a day, so hopefully tomorrow will be better. actaully i know tomorrow will be better. i need to move on...i cant just think about a boy thats not gonna have an impact on my life, i need to find one that i really like, but i always have a hard time telling boys i like that i like them...im horrible at relationships arent i well im pretty excited for 3d design and photogrpahy that i got, i have it tomorrow, so it better be good. and no more sleeping in class for me, lol, seriously, first day, and im already sleeping in class, not a good sign there so im supposed to meet this boy this weekend, but im not sure, i dont think its a good idea, all he does is uses girls, but im so fucking stupid and like him to much that i said i would hang out with him this weekend, should i? or should i ignore his calls and just stay his friend or something, man its going to be difficult. im sick of not being that gurl that he cares alot for and really likes me, i would die for that, but i guess im more like that gurl that was just a thing for a bit. and its really starting to hurt. i think im gonna die. tomorrow, i need to look forward to that, seeing all my friends. i just hope its a good day. later