he broke it. in millions of pieces. it didnt take him much either, just a few words, on text message. He texted me during class, and the next thing i knew, i was crying and everybody was trying to get me to cheer up. but i couldnt. i told you how my friend hates me becuz i went out with her ex. well last night, he went over to his house, and the next day, he broke up with me. so i know that something happened that night, and it just turns my stomach upside down. i saw her this morniing too. she works at quik trip, and i go there almost every morning for coffee and food. well, she just had to be working there today. as soon as i walked in, and her, my stomach wanted to go back, it felt like it was still in the car. i walked by as fast as i could and grabbed what i needed. she works at the cash register. thank god she called for help before i got to her, and i walked over to the other one. left, and not one word passed our mouths. we dont stand a chance of recovery. nobody understands, they all say, there are more out there, but right now, they are not with me are they? i want him, i just want him. i have wanted many people, but this one..is different. in many ways that are undescribable. my love life is something i dont think i want to get involved in for a while now. maybe i will just do what i use too. dont date but do whatever the fuck you want. my heart was never broken that way, it was just lonely, but thats better than this. MUCH better. ive decided, school is my number one prioritie right now, im gonna try my hardest to bring up all my grades. i quit smoking pot, for all of you who didnt know. but no, i cannot quit cigarettes, but i will one day. ONE day. im cleaning up the house before my aunt gets here from canada, i have missed her. i havent seen her in years, i havent seen any family in years. to see a familiar face will be quite warming. i guess this is it, for him. he cannot be in my life. and he better not come running back to me, it will never be the same.