Hes confusing me in every way possible, it seems that he likes me...he talks to me all the time, he invites me to hang out with him, he gives hints that he might like me, but then, he might just think of me as a friend, and is just messing around, cuz he never puts any moves on me...i like him to much, but im getting sick of waiting. and plus...this other boy that likes me, i wouldnt date, becuz hes seeing another girl, and his brother said that once he gets what he wants and gets bored of the girl, he just leaves her, and fuck no, am i letting that happen to me again. im just having such bad luck with boys right now, it seems that the ones that like me, just arent right for me, or are players, or i dont like, im sick of it, i just want the boy that i like for once, to actually like me, but how could i tell him, without worrying that it might get awkward around each other if he doesnt feel the same way? what if i tell him that i adore him in every way possible that he might think im wierd and leave me, wrecking the entire friendship that i have with him now, loosing every sight with him except when we pass each other in the hall, loosing our joking laughs and disses on each other, and just having fun, arguing over lyrics, singing songs that we both love, he is everything that i want, and im just "another" girl to him. why cant i mean more? im scared of this, im scared that its gonna hurt me when he gets with another girl, im scared that im not gonna be able to take him going out with another girl, i dont feel like crying again, is it pathetic that i have liked him for a year, and dont even have the guts to tell him that i care, sure i can tell him that hes pretty, but hell, everybody knows that, including him. Hes the perfect guy for me, i havent cared for a guy this much before. we talk about how our relatiopships with other people always end tragically and hurts us, but if i knew that me and him wouldnt work out, i would want to do it anyway, becuz right now, he amazes me, he makes me laugh, he makes me just want to hold his hand and never let go. oh, how i wish i could do so, and im pretty sure, that i would never let go. but what am i talking about? another teenage romance right, that goes to hell becuz we cant fill out each others needs, i would do my best to fill out his needs in everyway possible. just looking in his eyes, makes me want to turn away, but i never can, i wish i could, cuz i know they could never be locked into mine. am i wasting my time? or is this something...maybe its nothing, probably nothing. idk, but all i know is that im sick of waiting, but ill probably never stop.