well, the last four days can only be described as unstable, undesireable, immerable, painful. muh. it's been an "emotional rollercoaster" for no reason whatsoe'er. i want humanoids! just someone to connect with, talk to, hold, have, know, be friendly with, just.. fuck that. i want sam back. babe, you mean the world to me (and i get to see you in a fgew weeks!), i so do look forward to seeing you again, it's all i'm living for, and time between now and then is just idle. i'm building up to something, again. i think. i need a release, something either to vent my __________ or to distract me from it sufficiently. oh well, jsut a brief update, to show that i'm still alive and kicking. i must get on to updating my website, it's appauling but i just don't find the time anymore. i've commited to reading for at least 20 mins every day, so.. that'll make me more intelligent?, well, either way, stuff'll be in my head that wasn't before, and that usually comes in handy down the line. yes. i was going to finish this. ooooh just before i do haddaway - what is love B-HOO--J-AHH go the dis-co yuh. Bob 2101|100604