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Feeling: moodless
My grandma died today - this morning. Peacefully, I think she was sleeping. I'm sad, but I haven't cried. I cried so much on Sunday, I think I've, I don't know, accepted (?) it. I'm happy she's not suffering anymore, that she's moved on to a better existance. There's a viewing thing tomorrow in Traverse. We're all going, but I don't know if I want to. I don't want to see her, I hate that...when I die I don't want everyone walking past me, looking in my coffin, it's creepy. Then she's going to be cremated, and I don't know where she's going to be buried, but I think it's probably going to be here, in Rosco, with her husband. That's a good thing and what I would choose for her anyway, if I had a say. That's it I suppose. Thank you everyone, you've all been really great. Rachel, I'm glad our talk wasn't bad, I was worried. Carla and Cole, thank you for your notes, they made me feel a lot better. :) Love to everyone.
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Hey, i soory for ur loss, i understand how u must feel and am glad ur talking it well. just dont be afraid to cry, its one of the most healthy things u could do for urself. if u need to talk u could call me, i listen well
ben
Hey. Sorry to hear about your grandma, I know the feeling of "probably should be crying but I'm not" and all of that. Funerals, viewings---all just bullshit. To be blunt that is, but remembering someone as who they were rather than a lifeless body is...better. Yeah it is kind of creepy, to think that people just go there to show their respect and move on, but you know... Well, I hope all is well, take care :)
[emily]
Sarah, I'm so sorry. I know that doesn't help because there's nothing that really can help other than distracting yourself and time. But you can find some comfort in knowing that she's not suffering anymore, whether you believe in heaven, reincarnation, or whatever beliefs you have. I heart you and I'm sorry you had to go through this.
Carla
Hey Sarah,
Hugs and all that stuff, first off. I feel for you, which is replacing the usual "I'm sorry" statement. I just wanted you to know that this poem got me through when my family members have passed:
Remember Me
Remember me with smiles and laughter,
For that's how I'll remember you all.
If you can only remember me with tears,
Then don't remember me at all.

If you ever need me, my gmail is imperfectandhappy@gmail.com.
Much care,
Kyle
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