I WANT........... (by the way, "you" isn't the same person each time) you to be happy, because I care about you so much and you're the best friend I have ever had. you to realize how much I care. you to think about how you feel and then let me know, instead of this stupid game. the happy feelings to last longer than a day, or an hour. to be able to talk to you and for you to then tell me it's ok and give me a real hug. you to realize how much you hurt people and that you need to work on how you react and talk to them. you to realize I am an adult, or nearly so, and can take care of myself. to pass Chemistry 2 to sleep one night without tossing and turning for 3 hours due to the thoughts in my brain and to sleep the whole night. to leave this place and never look back. to go at least 2 days without crying. to gather myself and talk to each person on here that I need to (so I want the courage to do so) to punch you...and you....and you...and a few more yous lol. to drive to your house and fall asleep on your couch in your arms. I WANT TO DRIVE UNTIL I HIT THE OCEAN AND LAY ON THE BEACH FOREVER.