I'm craving my lost art of cutting. My mind is flooding with the immages of the blood. But then again this shit scares me because I have a baby inside me now and I can't be risking my life like that right now because I have my baby to take care of. I think it's juzt all this shit is starting to get to me. All this pain is realy starting to weigh me down. I know that I love Ashley, but I'm starting to since that something is wrong between us. Maybe it's juzt that I'm missing her so much I don't know, and hell who am I to complain anyway? I'm fuckin nobody, and I know it! And I'm sure that everyone else knows it too. I'm juzt glad that I have Ashley to tell me that she loves me. My baby, Ashley, and Bailey are realy all that is keeping me going right now. I have a doctar's appointment tomorrow. I'm sure that good news about my baby growing inside of me will be enough to chear me up. Plus tha fact that I get to see my girl tomorrow.