Damnet to hell!!!...I am so confused about something...I'm not gonna say what though "cuz some people on here may know what I'm talking about...'cuz it may be about them. I don't know if I like guys...I know I've said that before...but now I'm almost totally sure that I don't...except that now I like a guy who I'm not supose to...but I can't say who or why not...even though I am single, me and James still have something going on...so I couldn't do that to him. But besides that, I juzt can't see myself having sex with a guy...it kinda makes me sick to my stomach. Damnet! I realy think I'm gay this time. I can't have it all good in both worlds anymore...because I can't be with a guy. Even kissing guys now feels completly wrong. It feels so different from the soft passionate kissing of two girls. Damnet!!! I don't want to be gay!!! Being bi was all good..., but how tha hell am I going to go into the military if I cant be happy with a guy??? I mean if they catch me with a chix in the air force I'll be fuckin kicked out! Damnet! I can't help it though...the only guy I ever enjoyed being with or making love to was Kenndal...I seriously think that he's made me have a sour immage now if I even think about a guy. This is so fuckin complicated! I mean and I don't want to hurt James...maybe this feeling will juzt go away and I'll like girls and guys again. Somebody please talk to me and tell me what you think!