Date: Fri, 20 May 2005 10:08:33 -0700 (PDT) From: "Bailey Swicegood" Add to Address Book Add Mobile Alert Yahoo! DomainKeys has confirmed that this message was sent by yahoo.com. Learn more Subject: Re: bailey To: "Danielle McElrath" Tha diary name is Toy and tha diary name is Play with Me. Come on now, my nickname AND ICP lyrix? Come on chik. Well, yo ass better be at tha Blackout tonight Danielle McElrath wrote: I don't know what it is! You have to give it to me so I can read it. Bailey Swicegood wrote: Read my diary -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Do you Yahoo!? Read only the mail you want - Yahoo! Mail SpamGuard. I Love Kenndal 4~alwayz!!! Christine Danielle McElrath Date: Thu, 25 Aug 2005 15:35:48 -0700 (PDT) From: "Bailey Swicegood" Add to Address Book Add Mobile Alert Yahoo! DomainKeys has confirmed that this message was sent by yahoo.com. Learn more Subject: TOY To: "Danielle Talley" Danielle. I wanna come home. I can come home. Find out if I can stay with you as soon as possible. Ive been trying to call you and have left alot of messages. I will call you this weekend constantly. Im coming home. I love you and miss you so much. Whats going on? TOY Date: Tue, 25 Oct 2005 17:17:32 -0700 (PDT) From: "Bailey Swicegood" Add to Address Book Add Mobile Alert Yahoo! DomainKeys has confirmed that this message was sent by yahoo.com. Learn more Subject: hey To: "Danielle Talley" hey, you didnt call me back tha other day. I called you like twice yesterday i thibk but noone answered, probably cuz youre dad saw my name on caller id. But ne wayz.... um, what was up with you callin me? I didnt see that one comin. Weve been through shit before danielle, shit kind of like this, but it hasnt been that bad. And I dont kno what it is, but you abandoned me. You understand that dont you? You dont trust me, you dont act like you used to...man, were supposed to be juggalette homiez for life and death alwayz man, and you dont do this kind of shit. no matter what is goin on i wasnt backstabbin you or doin any bullshit, and then you pulled that out of no where with tha dont call me again shit. And i kno youre going thru some shit, but damnit this aint easy. You kno what its like to be abandoned. Kenndal did it to you. And then you did it to me. I stuck by you through everything we went thru ever. whatever it was, no questions asked, i was there and you and everyone else knew that. So, this is something serious and bigger than before, and this is something that we need to talk about. If you choose to write me back or call me again, and i dont kno if you will. But, if nething weve ever been thru means ne thing, i would hope that you would try to settle this out. ive done everything i can, and ive alwayz gone tha extra mile for you. Now its your turn. ***TOY*** Please register your mobile phone to activate this feature. Register your phone to receive a text message when you receive Mail from particular senders. Previous | Next | Back to Messages Call or Instant Message diamondlettefy555 DeleteReplyForwardSpamMove... Printable View This message is not flagged. [ Flag Message - Mark as Unread ] Date: Mon, 31 Oct 2005 16:00:24 -0800 (PST) From: "Bailey Swicegood" Add to Address Book Add Mobile Alert Yahoo! DomainKeys has confirmed that this message was sent by yahoo.com. Learn more Subject: Re: hey To: "Danielle McElrath" well i was just gettin on to write you back actually when here you are heheh... um, because i didnt think that you would write me back but i just wanted to let you kno that i hoped you were doin okay with tha baby and shit. Im doin better man, really. My repord card i got a 72 in chemistry and i was so happy because i justknew that i had failed and that is a c up here not a d. And i didnt fail ne classes. Me and julie hang out all tha time and i been gettin into ne trouble *( well besides tha usual heheh..) and im keepin shit up. I know that everyone who you ever thought you could trust has turned your back on you, but i seriously didnt kno this time. I knew things have been tha worse they have ever been. And truthfully i didnt think that we could pull through this because you really dont kno how much that phone call that day hurt me. And i have been around way before whats his face and adam and fuckin nicole has ever or will ever be. And i kno that it is hard to believe or even comprehend for you but i have kept coming back and trying my hardest. everyone has told me to fuck you and forget you because of this shit and, here i am. I didnt think you still considered ,me your sister for whatever reason. And i kno that your pregnant and all but tha only difference that has caused you is to get fat and have mood swings. Thats it. it seemed like you thought you were better than me. Because tha shit that i do, ive followed your advice. You told me to use tim for drugs and money that time, i did that with megan, but when i stopped coke and shit it was for money. You told me to lose my virginity to someone i didnt give a damn about, and i did, then i dropped him. im not wanting to stick to a guy here. you taught me how to use guys and make themm feel special, and i love jon, so im doing that to keep him around. You taught me not to trust peopel. I thought i had learned that. then you struck me down. But if you think that we can pick this up, than we can. its been years danielle. You kno me, really you do, but you expect me to let you down so bafd that you practically want it. You ask for it! And all ive ever done is be there. And i will be there. You and louie are all that matter to me. Tha last entry on my diary that isnt finnished wouldve said that. I just havent finnished typing it. Its all wrote down. you and Louie. And i kno that were going through shit. But thats okay. Down here ive learned that real juggalo family or just real peopel are hard to come by. Everyopne ditches everyone, say that theyre down, and ditch there family. Back home there are only a few of us and we cherish it. I have grown closer to tha saga and everything completely. Heh, tonight im goin trick or treating with a lot of peopel with 3 of us' face painted wicked clown style! But, get up with me sometuimme. And write me back or call me or something. I really wanna get shit fixed. Juggalo homiez 4~life and deatrh right? heheh.. ***TOY*** Danielle McElrath wrote: Toy, Yeah I know that all tha shit you sayin is tru...it's juzt that I've been goin thro alot of shit lately and everything has been strange as hell. I mean ur right I didn't fuckin trust u. I don't fuckin trust nobody, and you have to understand why. I mean that shit wid (what's his name) has fucked me up good. I mean maybe it's 4 tha better, like u and me alwayz seem to believe after shit like that 'cuz we get stronger...but this shit has realy turned me into a fuckin ice queen. Like u said I don't fuckin trust nobody and I don't fuckin love nobody...I'm like u were be4 Eric came and fucked that up 4 you. I'm like fuck everybody...but it realy goes beyond that and that's kinda scarry 'cuz I even pushed you away. I mean I felt and steel kinda feel like everyfuckinbody is out to get me so I wuz like fuck this I am through wid everybody! I mean that's even why Nicole said that she don't realy like being around me cuz she said that I seem like I'm juzt fuckin mad all tha time at everybody and everything. I don't know wut tha fuck is goin on...I juzt know that me and u are fuckin sisters and we will alwayz be, even tho all dis shit went down and I treated u like shit and all that...but u gotta understand that I still think that u did that shit wid Damon and that has realy fucked wid me too! I mean realy fuckin bad! I wanted to fuckin kill ur ass!!! I mean that's realy when it all started 'cuz u know things ain't been right since then. Write me back and I will call u when I can. I haven't realy been able to do to much of anything 'cuz I've been sick as hell...but I gots alot of shit to talk to you about, so pleaze write me back so I know u got this! "I am Lady Death in silk and lace, come to put out the candles". Flertkilla Date: Fri, 4 Nov 2005 22:20:53 -0800 (PST) From: "Bailey Swicegood" Add to Address Book Add Mobile Alert Yahoo! DomainKeys has confirmed that this message was sent by yahoo.com. Learn more Subject: Re: hey To: "Danielle McElrath" No, i have overcome so much down here. If you really want something than you can do it. If you tell yourself something enough over and over again than you can do it. you just dont care enough about me to ever try to fight it. your an anarchist. Stop following the system. YOUR system. stop going against everything you say you believe in. When you wr ote that im not real ne more bullshit, you were just trying to make an excuse so that you would feel better. Stop bullshitting yourself danielle. I have never and will nebver become like those we hate. you make reality into fantasy and you CAN seperate it because youve done it many times before. you knew you wanted louie and you know thats not fantasy, you know you love kenndal, tjhats not fantasy either. Youre just too scared to get a grip on reality! nothing that last email said had ne thing to do with what i sent. Danielle, why did you call me. If you want to forget about so much that you could actually convince yourself that i was changing....i just dont know. I dont even think that you get it. I cant do this danielle. Because its not up to me ne more. Ive done what i can. Ive told you how it is, ive put myself all out there, just like now. im doing everything i can. look, i cant convince ne more that i am fine. You have to believe. If you could believe in so much else why cant it be me/?? What have i done? I have been trying as hard as i can to keep everything perfect btwn everyone in rockingham. Keeping up on whats going on, and ive about had it1 But even if everyone abandons me, im STILL coming home. Even if everyone hates me, fuck them. I dont give a damn. And they should all know that...YOU should know that. i have stuck byt you through everything. EVERYTHING. And supported you, just to be FORGOTTEN. So youve had problems, OKAY. But youre driving me away danielle, your driving everyone away. Nicole was a fantasy, you know that. She did not love you, shes a little girl. But I am reality. And there will always be something to remind you of me. ALWAYS. Just like there will be of kenndal. You can only block out so much. You just like to believeotherwise. If you took control of your life than you would be fine. Here is an example: I know that i have never measured up to adam, kenndal...fuckin, Nicole was more important than me!. But here i am. Me. ONLY ME. And im just trying to be real with you right now. If you tell yourself to forget certain things so easily, then there is no way you shouldnt be able to tell yourself how things are. And how things should be. And i have given everything and more yto you. And if i havent, than what not? tell me? leyt me know! All ive done is tried to help you but you keep pushing me away and ignoring everything i say because thats not hoe youre system worx. IM AN ANARCHIST I HAVE SYSTEM YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE ONE. Danielle, i need you to do whatever, in order to sort shit out. I need you to think about everything, and try not to block nething out,. if you do, and you sort shit out, then you wont need to block shit out. Because i am a strong person. And you could be too. But i cant force you. you have to want it. And try, and not wear a mask. sort things out. And when you come to a decision, you let me kno. But i will be coming home. and i will be there. And i dont kno how all this will make you feel, but this emmail was meant to be harsh. TOY Danielle McElrath wrote: Toy, It's juzt fuckin weard man! It seems like ur not real anymore, like you never existed except for in my mind, like u are like them all...like everyone and everything that I've ever known. I don't know reality from fanitcy..., you of all people know that about me, because you've seen me hurt by it more times than fuckin humanly possable. I never remember anything or anyone on purpose, but on accident, and you know that. You know that by the first time that Kenndal and I kissed that I had forgotten everything about Adam, and now I don't remember Kenndal; I don't remember Nicole, and you are slipping away too. This is fuckin scarring tha shit out of me. How tha fuck am I supose to cope with never seeing you again Bailey??? Answer me that fuckin question you know that the only method that's ever worked for me is to forget..., to pretend like you never happened. How could you not see that was going to happen from the first phone call that you made me when you got to Floridia??? How could you not know that I would feel the worst abandonment that I had ever felt in my whole life??? You knew that I was going to go away inside my mind like I alwayz do. You knew that you would be lost to me forever. I can't comprehend you as reality anymore. And now, I'm only weeks away from having Louie and you are no where in sight. How do I deal? Bailey Swicegood wrote: well i was just gettin on to write you back actually when here you are heheh... um, because i didnt think that you would write me back but i just wanted to let you kno that i hoped you were doin okay with tha baby and shit. Im doin better man, really. My repord card i got a 72 in chemistry and i was so happy because i justknew that i had failed and that is a c up here not a d. And i didnt fail ne classes. Me and julie hang out all tha time and i been gettin into ne trouble *( well besides tha usual heheh..) and im keepin shit up. I know that everyone who you ever thought you could trust has turned your back on you, but i seriously didnt kno this time. I knew things have been tha worse they have ever been. And truthfully i didnt think that we could pull through this because you really dont kno how much that phone call that day hurt me. And i have been around way before whats his face and adam and fuckin nicole has ever or will ever be. And i kno that it is hard to believe or even comprehend for you but i have kept coming back and trying my hardest. everyone has told me to fuck you and forget you because of this shit and, here i am. I didnt think you still considered ,me your sister for whatever reason. And i kno that your pregnant and all but tha only difference that has caused you is to get fat and have mood swings. Thats it. it seemed like you thought you were better than me. Because tha shit that i do, ive followed your advice. You told me to use tim for drugs and money that time, i did that with megan, but when i stopped coke and shit it was for money. You told me to lose my virginity to someone i didnt give a damn about, and i did, then i dropped him. im not wanting to stick to a guy here. you taught me how to use guys and make themm feel special, and i love jon, so im doing that to keep him around. You taught me not to trust peopel. I thought i had learned that. then you struck me down. But if you think that we can pick this up, than we can. its been years danielle. You kno me, really you do, but you expect me to let you down so bafd that you practically want it. You ask for it! And all ive ever done is be there. And i will be there. You and louie are all that matter to me. Tha last entry on my diary that isnt finnished wouldve said that. I just havent finnished typing it. Its all wrote down. you and Louie. And i kno that were going through shit. But thats okay. Down here ive learned that real juggalo family or just real peopel are hard to come by. Everyopne ditches everyone, say that theyre down, and ditch there family. Back home there are only a few of us and we cherish it. I have grown closer to tha saga and everything completely. Heh, tonight im goin trick or treating with a lot of peopel with 3 of us' face painted wicked clown style! But, get up with me sometuimme. And write me back or call me or something. I really wanna get shit fixed. Juggalo homiez 4~life and deatrh right? heheh.. ***TOY*** Danielle McElrath wrote: Toy, Yeah I know that all tha shit you sayin is tru...it's juzt that I've been goin thro alot of shit lately and everything has been strange as hell. I mean ur right I didn't fuckin trust u. I don't fuckin trust nobody, and you have to understand why. I mean that shit wid (what's his name) has fucked me up good. I mean maybe it's 4 tha better, like u and me alwayz seem to believe after shit like that 'cuz we get stronger...but this shit has realy turned me into a fuckin ice queen. Like u said I don't fuckin trust nobody and I don't fuckin love nobody...I'm like u were be4 Eric came and fucked that up 4 you. I'm like fuck everybody...but it realy goes beyond that and that's kinda scarry 'cuz I even pushed you away. I mean I felt and steel kinda feel like everyfuckinbody is out to get me so I wuz like fuck this I am through wid everybody! I mean that's even why Nicole said that she don't realy like being around me cuz she said that I seem like I'm juzt fuckin mad all tha time at everybody and everything. I don't know wut tha fuck is goin on...I juzt know that me and u are fuckin sisters and we will alwayz be, even tho all dis shit went down and I treated u like shit and all that...but u gotta understand that I still think that u did that shit wid Damon and that has realy fucked wid me too! I mean realy fuckin bad! I wanted to fuckin kill ur ass!!! I mean that's realy when it all started 'cuz u know things ain't been right since then. Write me back and I will call u when I can. I haven't realy been able to do to much of anything 'cuz I've been sick as hell...but I gots alot of shit to talk to you about, so pleaze write me back so I know u got this! "I am Lady Death in silk and lace, come to put out the candles". Flertkilla -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Yahoo! FareChase - Search multiple travel sites in one click. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Yahoo! FareChase - Search multiple travel sites in one click. I Love Kenndal 4~alwayz!!! Christine Danielle McElrath Date: Sat, 5 Nov 2005 22:31:38 -0800 (PST) From: "Bailey Swicegood" Add to Address Book Add Mobile Alert Yahoo! DomainKeys has confirmed that this message was sent by yahoo.com. Learn more Subject: Re: hey To: "Danielle McElrath" Danielle, i know that you know now, that megan, i was using her. she was a person that we would never associate ourselves with because shes a fuckin idiot. shes so fuckin desperate that she knew tha only reason that i hung out with her is because she bought me shit and she kneew that. How fuckin pityful is that??? There is noone down here that i could ever replace you or ne thing and you have to know at least that. And i understand that you want to hate me because i left. But i left because i knew that i would be coming back. If i seriously thought that i would be foreverly stuck here, there is no way that i would have left. Danielle, i have always dreaded tha day you would start dating ne one else because i knew that it was my time to move back in tha line of order. But i have always been there and you know that i always will be. I know that you know that. And i know you want to hate me because you dont think that i am coming home but i am. And you probably dont now and wont until i do it. but i will. No matter how long it takes. but my mom has gone all freaky on my ass and ill have to tell you about that.. But, and i know you need me i know that. And i am trying to get home for you and louie because you and louie matter so much more to me than mama or ne one can ever comprehend. Only me and you can fully understand this. We cant expect ne one to be able to understand it. Thats why we can put up with so much. But why did you make everyone believe that those were tha reasons you didnt talk to me. Because now everyone including nicole and whomever was like oh im better than bailey now im so important, they reeked in it, i could smell it from here. And then you said how nicole and her mom were gonna be there for you in tha hospital. i dont want ne one else to be there for you like that!!! I AM THE PUSH THAT MAKES YOU MOVE I AM THE DISEASE EVERYONE PRETENDS TO BE And i hated nicole because she tried to take my place and it felt like she had suceeded because you let her believe it. And she thought she knew it and it killed me!! I wanna be there for louie and you!!ME! And im trying to get home! And i have always been there even when we hated each other because thats what we do and you know that. And you know that and you know thats how it will be. Always. for alwayz has never seemed to work for ne one else, but it will for me! I know that you needed me and still do i know that and i will not leave you just hangign there. i am coming home. christmas break is coming up december 19. and i will fight that entire time. I know im not getting probation so i dont have to worry about that, but i will do ne thing danielle to get home. Even if everyone hated me, i dont give a fuck i never haave, lately ive been trying to keep up with everyone back home but now iom just like fuck it, i dont care that much. And i dont. down here, i realize i am more like i was when eric hadnt tainted me. Alot of guys have been trying to hook up with me, and all of them ill completely ignore and shit. they'll talk to me and i might make out with them, mabe have sex with them, whatever, then ill ignore them. i dont care. I havent gave a fuck about dating, and i havent for about 6 months now. I didnt care to go out and make friends, so i didnt. They came to me tha peopel i chill with now. And right now im like well, fuck everyone back home pretty much . they never return my calls, or even just call me, so fuck them i dont give that much of shit now. And eric, i became neutral on that subject a long time ago when i did him like he did me. Jon, i care about, but im leaving that alone completely. At least until i come home, adn even then im not making that move at all. Im concerned about ne thing like that at all. Im... i dont know. But all that matters is thAT im coming home to you and louie. And when i do, im gonna make sure everyone around there knos that they are not even close to first in your life or louies. Not even fucking close! because thats MY posititon. And i hope im right about this.. But you know i love you, adn i ahte how you wanna hate me but that will be over soon i hope. Im keepin tabs on everything. Get up with me somehow..i called tha other day, your dad sounded all freak-out so i called back later and left a message, but, yea... i think i covered everything now...im gonna go check your sitDiary now i guess. Juggalette homiez for life and death. ***TOY*** Danielle McElrath wrote: Toy, I know that ur fine and that ur okay and have everything going good. ...But it wouldn't even matter if you won't and u didn't have anything under controal. I fuckin lied! I can't help it! I didn't give a fuck if you were on drugs or not or for that matter anything you did down there...I juzt wanted u to be here wid me!!! I'm sorry that I made such a big deal about that shit, because it didn't even matter. I juzt didn't want you to go and I hated you because you did go! ...juzt like I hate Kenndal. And that's fuckin bull shit wut u said! You have alwayz ment more than any of those fuckers, because even if you won't there and we hated eachother, you were alwayz there! But now ur not and it makes me fuckin hate you! You know that about me, so don't be mad, you had to expect it. I juzt want you back here because I feel betrayed and I need u around. Basically all my life I had u to call on and you had me...but now it's different and I have noone and I noticed that you were hanging out wid Meagen alot and I got fuckin jellious so I made up all that shit about how much I didn't like that so that I could forget you and hate you...but I can't. I wuz fuckin jellious okay. I mean hell why do you think that I never got along with ur boyfriends??? I mean I fuckin hated Eric when you were with him and while I dated Kenndal and I hated David when you wuz wid him, but I have nothing against David or Eric now. I don't give a shit about them but I don't hate them. This is juzt so fucked up! I juzt want you to come home!!! "I am Lady Death in silk and lace, come to put out the candles". Flertkilla Bailey Swicegood wrote: No, i have overcome so much down here. If you really want something than you can do it. If you tell yourself something enough over and over again than you can do it. you just dont care enough about me to ever try to fight it. your an anarchist. Stop following the system. YOUR system. stop going against everything you say you believe in. When you wr ote that im not real ne more bullshit, you were just trying to make an excuse so that you would feel better. Stop bullshitting yourself danielle. I have never and will nebver become like those we hate. you make reality into fantasy and you CAN seperate it because youve done it many times before. you knew you wanted louie and you know thats not fantasy, you know you love kenndal, tjhats not fantasy either. Youre just too scared to get a grip on reality! nothing that last email said had ne thing to do with what i sent. Danielle, why did you call me. If you want to forget about so much that you could actually convince yourself that i was changing....i just dont know. I dont even think that you get it. I cant do this danielle. Because its not up to me ne more. Ive done what i can. Ive told you how it is, ive put myself all out there, just like now. im doing everything i can. look, i cant convince ne more that i am fine. You have to believe. If you could believe in so much else why cant it be me/?? What have i done? I have been trying as hard as i can to keep everything perfect btwn everyone in rockingham. Keeping up on whats going on, and ive about had it1 But even if everyone abandons me, im STILL coming home. Even if everyone hates me, fuck them. I dont give a damn. And they should all know that...YOU should know that. i have stuck byt you through everything. EVERYTHING. And supported you, just to be FORGOTTEN. So youve had problems, OKAY. But youre driving me away danielle, your driving everyone away. Nicole was a fantasy, you know that. She did not love you, shes a little girl. But I am reality. And there will always be something to remind you of me. ALWAYS. Just like there will be of kenndal. You can only block out so much. You just like to believeotherwise. If you took control of your life than you would be fine. Here is an example: I know that i have never measured up to adam, kenndal...fuckin, Nicole was more important than me!. But here i am. Me. ONLY ME. And im just trying to be real with you right now. If you tell yourself to forget certain things so easily, then there is no way you shouldnt be able to tell yourself how things are. And how things should be. And i have given everything and more yto you. And if i havent, than what not? tell me? leyt me know! All ive done is tried to help you but you keep pushing me away and ignoring everything i say because thats not hoe youre system worx. IM AN ANARCHIST I HAVE SYSTEM YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE ONE. Danielle, i need you to do whatever, in order to sort shit out. I need you to think about everything, and try not to block nething out,. if you do, and you sort shit out, then you wont need to block shit out. Because i am a strong person. And you could be too. But i cant force you. you have to want it. And try, and not wear a mask. sort things out. And when you come to a decision, you let me kno. But i will be coming home. and i will be there. And i dont kno how all this will make you feel, but this emmail was meant to be harsh. TOY Danielle wrote: Toy, It's juzt fuckin weard man! It seems like ur not real anymore, like you never existed except for in my mind, like u are like them all...like everyone and everything that I've ever known. I don't know reality from fanitcy..., you of all people know that about me, because you've seen me hurt by it more times than fuckin humanly possable. I never remember anything or anyone on purpose, but on accident, and you know that. You know that by the first time that Kenndal and I kissed that I had forgotten everything about Adam, and now I don't remember Kenndal; I don't remember Nicole, and you are slipping away too. This is fuckin scarring tha shit out of me. How tha fuck am I supose to cope with never seeing you again Bailey??? Answer me that fuckin question you know that the only method that's ever worked for me is to forget..., to pretend like you never happened. How could you not see that was going to happen from the first phone call that you made me when you got to Floridia??? How could you not know that I would feel the worst abandonment that I had ever felt in my whole life??? You knew that I was going to go away inside my mind like I alwayz do. You knew that you would be lost to me forever. I can't comprehend you as reality anymore. And now, I'm only weeks away from having Louie and you are no where in sight. How do I deal? Bailey Swicegood wrote: well i was just gettin on to write you back actually when here you are heheh... um, because i didnt think that you would write me back but i just wanted to let you kno that i hoped you were doin okay with tha baby and shit. Im doin better man, really. My repord card i got a 72 in chemistry and i was so happy because i justknew that i had failed and that is a c up here not a d. And i didnt fail ne classes. Me and julie hang out all tha time and i been gettin into ne trouble *( well besides tha usual heheh..) and im keepin shit up. I know that everyone who you ever thought you could trust has turned your back on you, but i seriously didnt kno this time. I knew things have been tha worse they have ever been. And truthfully i didnt think that we could pull through this because you really dont kno how much that phone call that day hurt me. And i have been around way before whats his face and adam and fuckin nicole has ever or will ever be. And i kno that it is hard to believe or even comprehend for you but i have kept coming back and trying my hardest. everyone has told me to fuck you and forget you because of this shit and, here i am. I didnt think you still considered ,me your sister for whatever reason. And i kno that your pregnant and all but tha only difference that has caused you is to get fat and have mood swings. Thats it. it seemed like you thought you were better than me. Because tha shit that i do, ive followed your advice. You told me to use tim for drugs and money that time, i did that with megan, but when i stopped coke and shit it was for money. You told me to lose my virginity to someone i didnt give a damn about, and i did, then i dropped him. im not wanting to stick to a guy here. you taught me how to use guys and make themm feel special, and i love jon, so im doing that to keep him around. You taught me not to trust peopel. I thought i had learned that. then you struck me down. But if you think that we can pick this up, than we can. its been years danielle. You kno me, really you do, but you expect me to let you down so bafd that you practically want it. You ask for it! And all ive ever done is be there. And i will be there. You and louie are all that matter to me. Tha last entry on my diary that isnt finnished wouldve said that. I just havent finnished typing it. Its all wrote down. you and Louie. And i kno that were going through shit. But thats okay. Down here ive learned that real juggalo family or just real peopel are hard to come by. Everyopne ditches everyone, say that theyre down, and ditch there family. Back home there are only a few of us and we cherish it. I have grown closer to tha saga and everything completely. Heh, tonight im goin trick or treating with a lot of peopel with 3 of us' face painted wicked clown style! But, get up with me sometuimme. And write me back or call me or something. I really wanna get shit fixed. Juggalo homiez 4~life and deatrh right? heheh.. ***TOY*** Danielle wrote: Toy, Yeah I know that all tha shit you sayin is tru...it's juzt that I've been goin thro alot of shit lately and everything has been strange as hell. I mean ur right I didn't fuckin trust u. I don't fuckin trust nobody, and you have to understand why. I mean that shit wid (what's his name) has fucked me up good. I mean maybe it's 4 tha better, like u and me alwayz seem to believe after shit like that 'cuz we get stronger...but this shit has realy turned me into a fuckin ice queen. Like u said I don't fuckin trust nobody and I don't fuckin love nobody...I'm like u were be4 Eric came and fucked that up 4 you. I'm like fuck everybody...but it realy goes beyond that and that's kinda scarry 'cuz I even pushed you away. I mean I felt and steel kinda feel like everyfuckinbody is out to get me so I wuz like fuck this I am through wid everybody! I mean that's even why Nicole said that she don't realy like being around me cuz she said that I seem like I'm juzt fuckin mad all tha time at everybody and everything. I don't know wut tha fuck is goin on...I juzt know that me and u are fuckin sisters and we will alwayz be, even tho all dis shit went down and I treated u like shit and all that...but u gotta understand that I still think that u did that shit wid Damon and that has realy fucked wid me too! I mean realy fuckin bad! I wanted to fuckin kill ur ass!!! I mean that's realy when it all started 'cuz u know things ain't been right since then. Write me back and I will call u when I can. I haven't realy been able to do to much of anything 'cuz I've been sick as hell...but I gots alot of shit to talk to you about, so pleaze write me back so I know u got this! "I am Lady Death in silk and lace, come to put out the candles". Flertkilla -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Yahoo! FareChase - Search multiple travel sites in one click. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Yahoo! FareChase - Search multiple travel sites in one click. Date: Tue, 8 Nov 2005 17:14:48 -0800 (PST) From: "Bailey Swicegood" Add to Address Book Add Mobile Alert Yahoo! DomainKeys has confirmed that this message was sent by yahoo.com. Learn more Subject: Re: hey To: "Danielle McElrath" yay for me! Dude, i found another way home!! Well, last time i talked to mama about it she said tha only ppl i could stay with was bobby and grandma lassiter because she figured that would not ever happen. Well...Yesterday charlene called, a woman that was best friends with aunt mary and got her hooked on drugs and shit but then got clean. She somehow got our number and called, and then told me that she was moving into a big house on mcdonald church road, and that its a wealthy neighborhood and we talked and she wants me to move in with her. She'll even come to get me seeing as tho she comes to pensacola like twice a year mabe. And that she talked to grandma lassiter who said i could move in , even tho i would just go strait to live with charlene. And i old mama and she was like, you cant trust you shes just like your aunt yavonne shes strung out blah blah blah...well then i was like i can move in with grandma because she said i could and her mouth dropped and she went into her room and dint say ne thing. Well, Charlene said that she ran away when she was 16 and tha cops told her mom they couldnt do ne thing. So, thats probably whats gonna happen. But i have school work to look up adn less than an hour to do it so im gonna go to sitdiary now. Juggalette homiez, MCL ( alot of people up here write mmfwcl and were all like, damn, soon enough its gonna be mmfwclouldnah57ajtn&fjale lol) ***TOY*** Danielle McElrath wrote: Toy, It's fuckin late and I'm tired as hell, but I wrote you a comment on ur diary entry...so read it damnet!!! I'm sorry I haven't been able to call or answer ur phone calls...but daddy is being weard (read more on it in my comment on sit). Juzt remember that u were alwayz # one over anyone..., because everyone else had there time and then they were gone and I could except that, but I could never except you being gone!!!!!!! Like you said you and Louie will be the only 4~alwayz that will ever work!!!!!!! MCL! "I am Lady Death in silk and lace, come to put out the candles". Flertkilla Bailey Swicegood wrote: Danielle, i know that you know now, that megan, i was using her. she was a person that we would never associate ourselves with because shes a fuckin idiot. shes so fuckin desperate that she knew tha only reason that i hung out with her is because she bought me shit and she kneew that. How fuckin pityful is that??? There is noone down here that i could ever replace you or ne thing and you have to know at least that. And i understand that you want to hate me because i left. But i left because i knew that i would be coming back. If i seriously thought that i would be foreverly stuck here, there is no way that i would have left. Danielle, i have always dreaded tha day you would start dating ne one else because i knew that it was my time to move back in tha line of order. But i have always been there and you know that i always will be. I know that you know that. And i know you want to hate me because you dont think that i am coming home but i am. And you probably dont now and wont until i do it. but i will. No matter how long it takes. but my mom has gone all freaky on my ass and ill have to tell you about that.. But, and i know you need me i know that. And i am trying to get home for you and louie because you and louie matter so much more to me than mama or ne one can ever comprehend. Only me and you can fully understand this. We cant expect ne one to be able to understand it. Thats why we can put up with so much. But why did you make everyone believe that those were tha reasons you didnt talk to me. Because now everyone including nicole and whomever was like oh im better than bailey now im so important, they reeked in it, i could smell it from here. And then you said how nicole and her mom were gonna be there for you in tha hospital. i dont want ne one else to be there for you like that!!! I AM THE PUSH THAT MAKES YOU MOVE I AM THE DISEASE EVERYONE PRETENDS TO BE And i hated nicole because she tried to take my place and it felt like she had suceeded because you let her believe it. And she thought she knew it and it killed me!! I wanna be there for louie and you!!ME! And im trying to get home! And i have always been there even when we hated each other because thats what we do and you know that. And you know that and you know thats how it will be. Always. for alwayz has never seemed to work for ne one else, but it will for me! I know that you needed me and still do i know that and i will not leave you just hangign there. i am coming home. christmas break is coming up december 19. and i will fight that entire time. I know im not getting probation so i dont have to worry about that, but i will do ne thing danielle to get home. Even if everyone hated me, i dont give a fuck i never haave, lately ive been trying to keep up with everyone back home but now iom just like fuck it, i dont care that much. And i dont. down here, i realize i am more like i was when eric hadnt tainted me. Alot of guys have been trying to hook up with me, and all of them ill completely ignore and shit. they'll talk to me and i might make out with them, mabe have sex with them, whatever, then ill ignore them. i dont care. I havent gave a fuck about dating, and i havent for about 6 months now. I didnt care to go out and make friends, so i didnt. They came to me tha peopel i chill with now. And right now im like well, fuck everyone back home pretty much . they never return my calls, or even just call me, so fuck them i dont give that much of shit now. And eric, i became neutral on that subject a long time ago when i did him like he did me. Jon, i care about, but im leaving that alone completely. At least until i come home, adn even then im not making that move at all. Im concerned about ne thing like that at all. Im... i dont know. But all that matters is thAT im coming home to you and louie. And when i do, im gonna make sure everyone around there knos that they are not even close to first in your life or louies. Not even fucking close! because thats MY posititon. And i hope im right about this.. But you know i love you, adn i ahte how you wanna hate me but that will be over soon i hope. Im keepin tabs on everything. Get up with me somehow..i called tha other day, your dad sounded all freak-out so i called back later and left a message, but, yea... i think i covered everything now...im gonna go check your sitDiary now i guess. Juggalette homiez for life and death. ***TOY*** Danielle wrote: Toy, I know that ur fine and that ur okay and have everything going good. ...But it wouldn't even matter if you won't and u didn't have anything under controal. I fuckin lied! I can't help it! I didn't give a fuck if you were on drugs or not or for that matter anything you did down there...I juzt wanted u to be here wid me!!! I'm sorry that I made such a big deal about that shit, because it didn't even matter. I juzt didn't want you to go and I hated you because you did go! ...juzt like I hate Kenndal. And that's fuckin bull shit wut u said! You have alwayz ment more than any of those fuckers, because even if you won't there and we hated eachother, you were alwayz there! But now ur not and it makes me fuckin hate you! You know that about me, so don't be mad, you had to expect it. I juzt want you back here because I feel betrayed and I need u around. Basically all my life I had u to call on and you had me...but now it's different and I have noone and I noticed that you were hanging out wid Meagen alot and I got fuckin jellious so I made up all that shit about how much I didn't like that so that I could forget you and hate you...but I can't. I wuz fuckin jellious okay. I mean hell why do you think that I never got along with ur boyfriends??? I mean I fuckin hated Eric when you were with him and while I dated Kenndal and I hated David when you wuz wid him, but I have nothing against David or Eric now. I don't give a shit about them but I don't hate them. This is juzt so fucked up! I juzt want you to come home!!! "I am Lady Death in silk and lace, come to put out the candles". Flertkilla Bailey Swicegood wrote: No, i have overcome so much down here. If you really want something than you can do it. If you tell yourself something enough over and over again than you can do it. you just dont care enough about me to ever try to fight it. your an anarchist. Stop following the system. YOUR system. stop going against everything you say you believe in. When you wr ote that im not real ne more bullshit, you were just trying to make an excuse so that you would feel better. Stop bullshitting yourself danielle. I have never and will nebver become like those we hate. you make reality into fantasy and you CAN seperate it because youve done it many times before. you knew you wanted louie and you know thats not fantasy, you know you love kenndal, tjhats not fantasy either. Youre just too scared to get a grip on reality! nothing that last email said had ne thing to do with what i sent. Danielle, why did you call me. If you want to forget about so much that you could actually convince yourself that i was changing....i just dont know. I dont even think that you get it. I cant do this danielle. Because its not up to me ne more. Ive done what i can. Ive told you how it is, ive put myself all out there, just like now. im doing everything i can. look, i cant convince ne more that i am fine. You have to believe. If you could believe in so much else why cant it be me/?? What have i done? I have been trying as hard as i can to keep everything perfect btwn everyone in rockingham. Keeping up on whats going on, and ive about had it1 But even if everyone abandons me, im STILL coming home. Even if everyone hates me, fuck them. I dont give a damn. And they should all know that...YOU should know that. i have stuck byt you through everything. EVERYTHING. And supported you, just to be FORGOTTEN. So youve had problems, OKAY. But youre driving me away danielle, your driving everyone away. Nicole was a fantasy, you know that. She did not love you, shes a little girl. But I am reality. And there will always be something to remind you of me. ALWAYS. Just like there will be of kenndal. You can only block out so much. You just like to believeotherwise. If you took control of your life than you would be fine. Here is an example: I know that i have never measured up to adam, kenndal...fuckin, Nicole was more important than me!. But here i am. Me. ONLY ME. And im just trying to be real with you right now. If you tell yourself to forget certain things so easily, then there is no way you shouldnt be able to tell yourself how things are. And how things should be. And i have given everything and more yto you. And if i havent, than what not? tell me? leyt me know! All ive done is tried to help you but you keep pushing me away and ignoring everything i say because thats not hoe youre system worx. IM AN ANARCHIST I HAVE SYSTEM YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE ONE. Danielle, i need you to do whatever, in order to sort shit out. I need you to think about everything, and try not to block nething out,. if you do, and you sort shit out, then you wont need to block shit out. Because i am a strong person. And you could be too. But i cant force you. you have to want it. And try, and not wear a mask. sort things out. And when you come to a decision, you let me kno. But i will be coming home. and i will be there. And i dont kno how all this will make you feel, but this emmail was meant to be harsh. TOY Danielle wrote: Toy, It's juzt fuckin weard man! It seems like ur not real anymore, like you never existed except for in my mind, like u are like them all...like everyone and everything that I've ever known. I don't know reality from fanitcy..., you of all people know that about me, because you've seen me hurt by it more times than fuckin humanly possable. I never remember anything or anyone on purpose, but on accident, and you know that. You know that by the first time that Kenndal and I kissed that I had forgotten everything about Adam, and now I don't remember Kenndal; I don't remember Nicole, and you are slipping away too. This is fuckin scarring tha shit out of me. How tha fuck am I supose to cope with never seeing you again Bailey??? Answer me that fuckin question you know that the only method that's ever worked for me is to forget..., to pretend like you never happened. How could you not see that was going to happen from the first phone call that you made me when you got to Floridia??? How could you not know that I would feel the worst abandonment that I had ever felt in my whole life??? You knew that I was going to go away inside my mind like I alwayz do. You knew that you would be lost to me forever. I can't comprehend you as reality anymore. And now, I'm only weeks away from having Louie and you are no where in sight. How do I deal? Bailey Swicegood wrote: well i was just gettin on to write you back actually when here you are heheh... um, because i didnt think that you would write me back but i just wanted to let you kno that i hoped you were doin okay with tha baby and shit. Im doin better man, really. My repord card i got a 72 in chemistry and i was so happy because i justknew that i had failed and that is a c up here not a d. And i didnt fail ne classes. Me and julie hang out all tha time and i been gettin into ne trouble *( well besides tha usual heheh..) and im keepin shit up. I know that everyone who you ever thought you could trust has turned your back on you, but i seriously didnt kno this time. I knew things have been tha worse they have ever been. And truthfully i didnt think that we could pull through this because you really dont kno how much that phone call that day hurt me. And i have been around way before whats his face and adam and fuckin nicole has ever or will ever be. And i kno that it is hard to believe or even comprehend for you but i have kept coming back and trying my hardest. everyone has told me to fuck you and forget you because of this shit and, here i am. I didnt think you still considered ,me your sister for whatever reason. And i kno that your pregnant and all but tha only difference that has caused you is to get fat and have mood swings. Thats it. it seemed like you thought you were better than me. Because tha shit that i do, ive followed your advice. You told me to use tim for drugs and money that time, i did that with megan, but when i stopped coke and shit it was for money. You told me to lose my virginity to someone i didnt give a damn about, and i did, then i dropped him. im not wanting to stick to a guy here. you taught me how to use guys and make themm feel special, and i love jon, so im doing that to keep him around. You taught me not to trust peopel. I thought i had learned that. then you struck me down. But if you think that we can pick this up, than we can. its been years danielle. You kno me, really you do, but you expect me to let you down so bafd that you practically want it. You ask for it! And all ive ever done is be there. And i will be there. You and louie are all that matter to me. Tha last entry on my diary that isnt finnished wouldve said that. I just havent finnished typing it. Its all wrote down. you and Louie. And i kno that were going through shit. But thats okay. Down here ive learned that real juggalo family or just real peopel are hard to come by. Everyopne ditches everyone, say that theyre down, and ditch there family. Back home there are only a few of us and we cherish it. I have grown closer to tha saga and everything completely. Heh, tonight im goin trick or treating with a lot of peopel with 3 of us' face painted wicked clown style! But, get up with me sometuimme. And write me back or call me or something. I really wanna get shit fixed. Juggalo homiez 4~life and deatrh right? heheh.. ***TOY*** Danielle wrote: Toy, Yeah I know that all tha shit you sayin is tru...it's juzt that I've been goin thro alot of shit lately and everything has been strange as hell. I mean ur right I didn't fuckin trust u. I don't fuckin trust nobody, and you have to understand why. I mean that shit wid (what's his name) has fucked me up good. I mean maybe it's 4 tha better, like u and me alwayz seem to believe after shit like that 'cuz we get stronger...but this shit has realy turned me into a fuckin ice queen. Like u said I don't fuckin trust nobody and I don't fuckin love nobody...I'm like u were be4 Eric came and fucked that up 4 you. I'm like fuck everybody...but it realy goes beyond that and that's kinda scarry 'cuz I even pushed you away. I mean I felt and steel kinda feel like everyfuckinbody is out to get me so I wuz like fuck this I am through wid everybody! I mean that's even why Nicole said that she don't realy like being around me cuz she said that I seem like I'm juzt fuckin mad all tha time at everybody and everything. I don't know wut tha fuck is goin on...I juzt know that me and u are fuckin sisters and we will alwayz be, even tho all dis shit went down and I treated u like shit and all that...but u gotta understand that I still think that u did that shit wid Damon and that has realy fucked wid me too! I mean realy fuckin bad! I wanted to fuckin kill ur ass!!! I mean that's realy when it all started 'cuz u know things ain't been right since then. Write me back and I will call u when I can. I haven't realy been able to do to much of anything 'cuz I've been sick as hell...but I gots alot of shit to talk to you about, so pleaze write me back so I know u got this! "I am Lady Death in silk and lace, come to put out the candles". Flertkilla I Love Kenndal 4~alwayz!!! Christine Danielle McElrath Date: Fri, 11 Nov 2005 17:39:50 -0800 (PST) From: "Bailey Swicegood" Add to Address Book Add Mobile Alert Yahoo! DomainKeys has confirmed that this message was sent by yahoo.com. Learn more To: "Danielle Talley" Yea...i am so bored...bleh..there is nothing to do at all whatsoever. So.....i was just writing you back to write you back but i will write you back when there is something to say. if you get this tonight, call me back at a cell number that is 292-0272. i think 850 is area code if you need it. MCL TOY Date: Tue, 15 Nov 2005 13:47:48 -0800 (PST) From: "Bailey Swicegood" Add to Address Book Add Mobile Alert Yahoo! DomainKeys has confirmed that this message was sent by yahoo.com. Learn more To: "Danielle Talley" I just wanted to thank you real quick for all of your advice! Me losing my virginity to someone i didnt give a damn about was tha best thing i could do. I am just like me before eric got to me! Dylan, Richard, Calen, they think were like gonna hook up and i totally diss them like, um , no! Like this guy richard. Hes a senior. About tha head of tha wrestling team and i was gonna take his virginity this weekend. But jukie told me not to because i could really hurt him because he really likes me. Hes writin me emails like ' make plans to chill wid us this weekend later hot chic' and im like ' um actually, i dont think we'll be hanging out. I probably have other plans' so hes like ' well do you want my number to call me?' '....no. W'ell get up with jon" and im bein a bitch to all these guys and its great!!! Oh yea, check out my myspace!!! myspace.com/toy_diamondlette I love you!! sorry bout tha drunken other nite phone call too...heheh To: toy Date: Dec 15, 2005 9:28 PM Subject: No Subject Body: danielle, seriously, when have i cared for nething? I will explain it when i talk to you tomarow hehehe. call em at 850- 549-3241. Im off of skool at 10:05 mcl toy To: toy Date: Dec 24, 2005 8:31 AM Subject: RE: No Subject Body: wassup. I called you alot. And noone answeed then your dad said that y'all had gone to wal mart and that you were asleep. look, im sorry i had to get off tha phone but mama had to use it for something important. ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Danielle Date: Dec 24, 2005 8:28 AM hello hoe To: toy Date: Dec 30, 2005 9:11 PM Subject: RE: RE: RE: p Body: no, that is fucked up because you should be confident enough to kno that im not gonna replace you because thats just stupid so stop using that as an excuse! I tell you whats going on because i figure you would want to kno what im doing. Thats usually how it goes: something interesting happens, we tell each other. And if i wasnt out doin shit because then, id be a hypocrit. because im always bitchin aboout how im gonna live my life to tha fullest and do everything and nothings gonna hold me back and experiencing shit, when if i was just sittin around bullshittin all day everyday would be stupid. And i kno that you wanna hear me being miserable, but youre tha one who in tha first placve told me that i need to think positive about everything to pull myself up. Ive told you how miserable i was plenty of times, and i didnt think that redundancy was neccesary. And i figured you didnt really wanna hear about everyone down there, so i havent even told you m,ost shit. This ISNT me danielle, were not drifting apart, youre pulling away. Im moving home. And you donbt believe me. I kno you dont like to get your hopes up and shit, but you sittin back saying no itll never happen yea rite, and tryin to make me feel like a dumbass about it, isnt helping ne thing! I try to keep touch, and i have always in tha past done ne and everything to help you. Youre not giving ne of it back. Why didnt you call me? Why did you act so wierd when i was over there? You acted like you resented my presence. I dont kno, ive tried tho. ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Danielle Date: Dec 24, 2005 9:05 AM Well if it's not fucked up, why is tha only thing you wuz talkin about wuz all ur new friends and wut you do wid them, and where you go and hang out down there...tha thing is I don't give a fuck what ur doing down there, finding out juzt makes me more fuckin misrible. All I wanna hear of you doing down there is your missrible and miss me and wanna come home...but your not missrible....you have so many friends to replace me that I might as well have never existed! ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: toy Date: Dec 24, 2005 8:56 AM danielle, there hasnt been ne thing to make it fucked up again! That didnt make it fucked up again! My phone being cut off for a week and a half DID NOT make it fucked up again! All you ever see is tha fuck upedness of something! ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Danielle Date: Dec 24, 2005 8:36 AM look at my updatd profile...it kicks ass! To: toy Date: Dec 31, 2005 11:10 AM Subject: RE: RE: RE: RE: hey Body: yea and that is understandable but you shouldnt take it out on me because i am doing whatever tha fuck. I dont need a kid and i dont need to grow up either! im on my wasy to your house, so ill talk later about this. No bad goodbyes please ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Danielle Date: Dec 31, 2005 11:08 AM what choice do i have??? I'm a single parent at tha age of 16! It would probably be different if Kenndal was here....but he's not and everything is on me1 I have school and taking care of Louie. I'm not complaining at all, but there is no fuckin time to juzt party or to be a teenager. I've alway had to grow up fast in my life and now it's here. I cant afford to grow up anymore. I have to be an adult now! That's why I stoped talking to Jon, because tha next guy I should be talking to is someone rich who I can marry to help support my child. I have no more time to be a child myself. I have to give up everything for Louie, and I'm more than willing to. ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: toy Date: Dec 31, 2005 11:02 AM danielle having a child does not make you instantaneously mature or ne thing, youre not an adult JUSt because you had a kid! And im NOT that immature but youre rite, i DONT wanna grow up! I wanna stay like this FOREVER. Partying and living, thats what its always been about! Thats what we are SUPPOSED to be doing. Were 16! Youre barely 16, anbd lookm at you. Youre not supposed to act 25! ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Danielle Date: Dec 31, 2005 10:55 AM my com is fuckin up so it's hard to do anything wid it right now, but i'll try. Sorry about tha other day...i don't realy know how to explain tha way i wuz acting..., juzt that before we wuz alwayz on tha same level and could always understand everything the otha wuz going through....but now we are completly different from eachother. I have to be an adult now, and that's the furthest thing from what you have or want to be. You know that we'll alwayz be friends and that if we realy ever need eachother we will be there...but I think it's gonna take a few years until we can be as close as we use to be, because we have to get on the same level again. But you know that I will alwayz love you and always be here 4 you. ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: toy Date: Dec 31, 2005 10:25 AM send me some pix that i wanted yesterday, and how do i get them to go onto my actual page and not on my picture section? To: toy Date: Feb 1, 2006 5:16 PM Subject: RE: RE: RE: RE: No Subject Body: yea and why tha fuck didnt you call me back last nite? And why didnt you call me today? why dont you call me? what if i have something important to say? do you even give a fuck??? ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Alwayz be 2~getha 'cuz were both under tha Moon! Date: Jan 31, 2006 5:47 PM i keep getting kicked off tha net lol ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: toy Date: Jan 31, 2006 5:44 PM wow, i almost really sent you a bitchy email. im leaving now. call me or somethin i guess ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Danielle Date: Jan 31, 2006 5:38 PM wut up chick? ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: toy Date: Jan 31, 2006 5:29 PM ne day now...ne time...are you just avoiding me? To: toy Date: Feb 3, 2006 7:04 PM Subject: RE: RE: RE: RE: RE: bitches and hoes Body: chick, warning, DONT call me hon in that bitchy tone. I kno you havent bitched at me in a long time but thats because we havent talked. Ive been trying to be nice for a while danielle, but tha fact that youre jealous because i have a life, and its killing you. And quite frankly my dear, i dont give a damn heh. Sorry but, you have abandoned me since i got here: juggalo family dont do that. And as for me, heh, damn, i can barely count tha family ive got down here! and considering how *fragile* you are and unable to deal with tha harshness of life, i didnt wanna be responsible for your emo ass commiting suicide. look, i dont have time for this anymore, and im sorry. youre right, we are different now ,danielle. i go out and live my life to tha fullest as an anarchist should, and you...well, get used to watching tv for like eighteen years. Oh, and since kenndal is back in town, you should tell him hi for me, unless you plan on running forever. that's so pathetic. ltr TOY ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Alwayz be 2~getha 'cuz were both under tha Moon! Date: Feb 1, 2006 5:26 PM i haven't bitched at you about it in a long while now hun..., cuz ur right i don't hate you at all...,but i could give a fuck less anymore. ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: toy Date: Feb 1, 2006 5:20 PM i acll you, and call you, and leave messages, and call you some more, and you bitch at me for not calling and ruining everything, adnm you dont vcall me! ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Alwayz be 2~getha 'cuz were both under tha Moon! Date: Feb 1, 2006 5:19 PM huh? ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: toy Date: Feb 1, 2006 5:18 PM hey, you wrote me this time you got on. seriously, what tha fuck is up? ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Alwayz be 2~getha 'cuz were both under tha Moon! Date: Feb 1, 2006 5:16 PM wuts up bat boy? ...yeah don't ask lol To: toy Date: Apr 2, 2006 6:27 PM Subject: RE: No Subject Body: heh, i wasnt on all day. it was anna and devin's birthday party, adn i went and passed out and got up like 30 minutes ago ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Alwayz be 2~getha 'cuz were both under tha Moon! Date: Apr 2, 2006 3:27 PM why tha hell won't u talk to me??? To: toy Date: Apr 6, 2006 1:57 PM Subject: No Subject Body: danielle you told me yourself that it would never be the same. To: toy Date: Apr 8, 2006 6:12 PM Subject: RE: RE: RE: RE: journ

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