I realy feel like shit 2day! I wrote that entry in here yesterday, but I wrote it Fri. night after I got back from the s8ing rink. I went Sat. 2 but Nicole wont there. I don't even know if I like Nicole that much. I mean I like tha way she looks and her personality and everything, but I think basically I like her because she reminds me of when I wuz with Linsey, and when I wuz with Linsey I wuz still with Kenndal, and I miss him more than anyfuckinthing right now! I hate being alone! And right now I'm alone 'cuz I think Ashley broke up with me. I don't blaim her though. I mean it's not like I cheated on her or anything, but I guess thinking about someone else is juzt as bad. I love Ashley. I realy do, and I hope that she realizes that and we can continue to be friends. It's juzt that I don't think that I can handle anything serious right now, because I juzt came from a very serious relationship already that resulted in my child. (Which of corse I could never regret!)