Wayward Ronin87: Hey 8) Flertkilla: hey! Flertkilla: wut u up to? Wayward Ronin87: How ya doing? Flertkilla: pritty shitty...juzt got through crying...Bailey is trying to fuck up my life Wayward Ronin87: What did she do? Wayward Ronin87: I am doing alright, btw. Havent been up too long. Flertkilla: well atleast you got ur sleep...which you seem to never get lol....She is juzt bringing stuff up that she has no right too...hold on i'll send it to you on myspace Wayward Ronin87: Alright Flertkilla: okay i sent it...and she left fucked up comments too Wayward Ronin87: Alright, I am loging in now. Flertkilla: kk Wayward Ronin87: What all did you get up to yesterday? Flertkilla: oh umm....still not making much progress cuz i spent tha whole day at wallmart but i'm on 115 Wayward Ronin87: Aye, I am gonna read the Sleeping Beauty tonight most likely, dont really know anything else I have going on. Flertkilla: lol...bought time Flertkilla: did u read that shit that bailey wrote me? Flertkilla: yeah and u should realy read the comments she left too Wayward Ronin87: Just finished reading it, that is fucked up...but then agian you were wanting to distance yourself from her, and you had said that she was a totally different person now. Flertkilla: but that's because it's true Flertkilla: but i didn't say one damn negitive thing too her but she is bringing up shit that she has no right too Wayward Ronin87: Its because shes petty and shes trying to be a bitch...I would just write her off and move on. There are other family, and who cares about one person that decides to go 'shell' and then base you whole level of happiness on how petty or not petty they are feeling at any given moment. I say fuck em. Wayward Ronin87: Life is much too brief. Flertkilla: thanx...I'm starting too feel better about it now...I juzt needed to talk to someone about it because it's kinda scarry because she was like one of the 2 true friends that i've ever had but when she moved to flordia she completly changed juzt like when kenndal moved to verginia he completly changed Wayward Ronin87: There are other friends, and life is full of suprises. Carpe Diem. Wayward Ronin87: I have 2 true friends, and I hold them close. Over the years I have lost 4 true friends. 5 if you count a dog. That isnt such a great ratio, but I move on. It is all I can do. I feel like if I ever slow down, I most likely wont start back moving. Flertkilla: yeah i can understand that...but it's so fuckin hard for me to open up to people and damnet i'm crying again but now she is using things that i told her with love and total trust against me Wayward Ronin87: In this instance, you could try to get revenge by spreading her shit...or just add her to your ignore list, chalk her up as another fucking piece of shit that you seem to have to co-exist with...and move on. I had a boy that I had just spent around 500$ over the course of say 3 weeks partying with...who the second I went broke ran away with my gf who was living with me, and hasnt said a mother fucking word to me since.....there isnt much you can do. I just do my best to ignore him. Flertkilla: yeah but we were like sisters since 3rd grade...i'm not low enough of a human being to talk shit about her. I still love the person who she use to be...but juzt like kenndal she is like a whole other person now...like the real her died so... I will put her on my egnore list and hope that someday years from now she and I will be able to become friends again....there goes another person who i thought wiuld alwayz be in my life Wayward Ronin87: As long as life continues, there is always hope. Wayward Ronin87: *shrugs* Wayward Ronin87: I dream big, they keep me going. I want to burn out...and hopefully feel fulfilled when I die. That doesnt seem like such a bad goal. Wayward Ronin87: As long as I can believe that I will meet new people, and have new experiences...life seems fairly bright. Wayward Ronin87: Because I dont really live for much else....I think that life consists of *ponders the wording* the colloboration of the pain, fun, hurt, love, sadness...everything is related to each other. The pain makes the pleasure all the much stronger, the sadness makes the happiness that much sweeter. Wayward Ronin87: *shrugs* Wayward Ronin87: I am in a philosophical mood.....lol Flertkilla: yeah...i've always agreed with that...but why tha hell does it seem that every single time something good happens it gets ripped away from me? Can't anything ever happen completly right? I mean juzt one thing ya know Wayward Ronin87: Try not to remember the bad, but remember the good that you got out of it...whether you learned something, or just created happy memories...whatever you can fnd...try to put them before the bad. The bad will always be there to remind you...but the good takes some of the bite out of it. Wayward Ronin87: And in my opinion, I can not remember anything that has ever turned out completely right...I chalk it up to bad luck, but it cant stay bad forever. Because eventually I am gonna end up dying from it, or I am gonna actually have something turn out right. Flertkilla: yeah...well i'm about to get off tha internet hun...to u wanna talk on tha phone? Wayward Ronin87: I dont see why not, I am probally gonna have to go help out in the garage in a moment. But who knows maybe dad is too fucked up to remember, lol. Flertkilla: lol...hopefully. Well ummm...I'm signing off then Wayward Ronin87: Alright =) Flertkilla: <3 ya Flertkilla: peace Wayward Ronin87: It will be just a second, I am installing an update. Peace