yea! so if anyone has gotten those comments on their diary things about that whole official messageboards and then that girl Sarah getting on and doing all that stuff to your private entries and everything got me SO confused it wasn't funny and I read over some of the things and was just like WHAT THE HELL? and I mean no one knows my AIM screen name on here and I sure as hell didn't give it out when I signed up so that is a whole bunch of bullshit and I have NO private entries so what it is up with that so I'm not going to delete this name or stop using it because I happen to like thist place a lot and it's ten times better then most places I have been going to. So screw that girl and if that Sarah person wants to fuck with me then I'll let her and won't give a damn in the world and just sit and let it pass like I always do and I'm just tired of this world and I'm tired of living it and I don't want to look at myself in the mirror ever again and I'm just tired of it. So bring it on whoever you are! While I sit and cry myself to sleep every night and don't know what the hell I'm still doing here. I'm going to whitewater tomorrow, lucky me right? I get to walk around in a bathing suit and show off my fatness while all these other people get to walk around in bikinis and know they are all-that and they're the ones that get the second glances from guys, I'm just the girl they ignore and make fun of and point and laugh at. Or just the person all the people stare at and probably wonder how I became so ugly but whatever I live with it every day and just another day that is wasted. But I'm going to go now, go watch a movie about what love should be and the love I will never find...goodbye all.