i feel so alone... people are your best freinds one minute. the next they are calling you a freak. i know i have a lot of freinds, but lately i feel totally alone. i feel like im flying in this whirlwind, but it isnt a good flying. i feel like im watching the world go by beneath me without me and i cant get out of this whirlwind becuase i dont have anyone to hold on to. yet at the same time, i know i have a lot of freinds. here is my tribute to my real best freinds ever-the possy. caroline, amy, laura, and melissa, you guys rock, you are my true freinds. you never backstab me or tell my secrets, you never ditch me for some other person that may be more popular, you always listen to me, even if im just venting, and you always at least try to understand. thanks. morgan, you are also my true friend. i have known you since like i was in kindergarden and we have stayed great freinds since. we both love anime-i got you started on your crazy obsession! you are the freind i can run to when i get a new inuyasha graphic novel, or when i feel like my life is ruined. thanks. marina, i know you deserve a shoutout in this entry. i met you in second grade, now im in eighth, and we are still awesome friends. you are pretty much the person i trust with my inner feelings, they can be about anything, boys, religion, mistakes, embarresment, happiness, whatever, i feel like i can talk to you about it. thanks. luara, i havnt known you as long, i met you in fifth grade. we wernt freinds really though until i was in sixth grade. im not sure why, i was bored one day and i didnt feel like playing football so i went up to you and your group who looked like they were having fun. soon we all became great friends, and i miss the rest of the gang so much, but its great that you are still around. though i trust marina with most of my thoughts, there are still a few tucked in my brain that i cant let her see, only becuase she has known me so long. you are the person i can trust with that stuff. the stuff like what people think of me, being afriad of being different, certain things i dont like about mmyself, that is what i feel like i can talk to you about. thanks. sam and sheela, i met sam this year and sheela last year. we didnt really become great freinds til this year though. what would i do without my boring conversation freinds? you are the freindships that i need when i am having a really awful day and i need someone to cheer me up. yall rock at that! you make me laugh when i feel like my world is over. thanks. rachel, sarita, amaanti, pragna, i miss you guys so much! you guys were the greatest freinds-you were always so much fun, you never judged me, you always encouraged me to have fun,not to try and act cool. you were always forgiving when i made mistakes. you would listen to me about my hopes and fears. you never tried to act older or cool, and that is what i love about you. thanks. lastly, i would like to give a little shout out to all my freinds on sitdiary that i do not know. you give me advice on tough situations and listen to me rant. you talk to me when im bored, share my good charlotte obesseion (at least shestheblade does), and tell me to smile when all is lost. i dont know you, i dont see you, but you always brighten my day. thanks. everyone i didnt write to on here but are my freinds, thank you too. i just didnt feel like writing a paragraph on everyone one of my freinds. wow. i started this entry being depressed...now i am totally happy. that is amasing... writing makes me happy! i love all of yall!