My parents and I are still fighting I hate it So that's why I've been spending so much time out of the house lately I'm trying to get away from it.... I don't know. I'm tired of trying. I'm tired of wasting my time. So I'm not gonna try anymore. Let other people decide what happens in my life. I'm so far done. ___________________ Update at 8:34 pm Isn't it crazy how some things can seem so within your grasp but then you get close to them and it's like they seem farther away then ever? I don't know. It's one of those days where my emotions are everywhere. I think one thing one minute then the next I hate myself for thinking that. I tend to in my mind try to shift the blame off of myself. I tell myself it's someone else's fault. Then I shift the blame onto myself and tell myself there's something wrong with me and basically fall into depression. Then after it's all done I look back and realize-it was nobody's fault. It happened. The end. Or, I look back and realize that it was my fault, but their's too. It's not just me and it never was. But I always realize crap way too late. How can I learn to see things as they happen?