"They say it's only human to never be satisfied/I guess that I'm as human as the next one/I keep lookin, I keep lookin for something more/I always wonder what's on the other side of the #2 door/ I keep lookin for something more" Music's the best, there's always a song to fit whatever you're going through. This song fits me so well. I've never REALLY been happy. I've had so so many happy moments, but I've never been completely satisfied, I'm always looking for something else, or afraid to close myself off to other options. I don't want to be like that, I want to meet someone that sweeps me off my feet and makes me want nobody else but him. I hope for that to happen, but I really don't think it's possible. I'm afraid that I'll never be truly happy, that I'll always want for something else, and I'll continue to hurt people. This is the longest that I've been on my own since 9th grade. On my own means no boyfriend and no potential boyfriends. I'm going to keep it this way, for quite a while. I don't want to go through another breakup, I don't want to break another guy's heart. I want to have friends, but just that, nothing more than friendly hugs. Down the road if i meet someone that I click with, that's good for me and to me, that's intersted in me as much as I am in him, if all the pieces fit, I'll consider something more. I'm scared though, I don't like feeling alone, but I guess I'll get used to it. I have to.