make it stop make it stop make it stop

i just want to feel like i'm in control of myself again make it stop make it stop

i want to act like a real adult and i want to be capable of separating my feelings and i'm not i'm not i'm not i'm falling apart over something so fucking stupid and something i've done to other people

i'm so petty and fucking stupid and i know this is so selfish and basically makes me nothing but awful but there it is

i just want someone to pay attention to me

which is stupid because they do, people do, i know it

i just

i don't know

i don't know what i want but i know it's not this and this is really getting to be too much and i really need to stop