thats not my current mood.. i dont really know what my current mood is... i wanna say i hate life.. but.. i dont really *hate* it.. im just.. confused-ish.. i hate not being able to confuse things. and here i am AGAIN, with this strong urge to reach for my knife and cut my arm. i know i know, i shouldnt. but.. i just feel like its my only option, even though its not.. and.. *sigh* ..i still need an accountability (sp?) partner.. maybe ill find one at youth group cause.. i really need someone here that i could talk to.. i wonder if zach would help.. but i want someone whos been in my position, or atleast knows where im coming from.... --------------------- "youre ugly and your momma dresses you funny" lol i got that from a sticker i got at zachs work ~two words one choice no regrets~