i had a horrible dream last night.. i was talking to evan.. and he started saying that hes in love.. then he said with this girl he met.. and that she was drunk. and she gets that way a lot.. but he still loves her.. but that he also loves me.. and then i started cussing at him saying that i waited two fricken (but in the dream i said the other word..) years for him. and that it was all for nothing. and that im never gonna love anyone as much as i did him. and then after that it was soooo hard to get to sleep.. *sigh* that better not actually happen.. id die.. not physically. mentally.. ~two words one choice no regrets~