i wrote this last night.. Okay it's getting harder now Take the pain away I HATE MYSELF I hate this I always loved you I always cared I'm sorry I hurt you I wish this was all a dream Just a horrible dream And I'd wake up any second How could I have been so blind? How can you go on pretending like everything's okay, When we know nothing really is? ..Ok I don't want to die I just want to this to end Oh Father, My God, forgive me For I am not who you want me to be ~two words one choice no regrets~