But its a good kinda lonely. 'Cause I'm outside. Alone. With two candles, two dogs, candy (Sour Patch Kids, Rips, and Peanut M&Ms), the moon, clear dark sky, a few stars, and those thingies that are protecting me from the bugs :) They're like.. screens... yeeaaa those. Its cold though, but. Feels nice. And the death music helps too... Its so calming and... Relaxing... I like it better than a damn bubble bath =p My dad went back to the doctor today, then the hospital, then back to the doctor.. And they still want a second oppinion.. So I thought the three days off from work would help... But.. Apparently its not going to... I should just go in there willingly.. And tell whoever is the L.O.T. to give me a job to do... But then I'll get annoyed not want to work anymore.. Sooo its better for me to have the three days off.. ooooh, And!! I was ACTUALLY able to eat today! I knoww I eat usually, but this is the first time in over a week I've actually been able to finish an entire meal without wanting to throw it all back up.. Taproot "I" now... Good song... Metal ish awesome.. Makes me angry.. GRRRRRR!!! heh.. The other good thing about being alone... Is I can get lost in a song and not be interrupted by anyone during my 'lost' times.. Feels nice... Well except for a few minutes ago, and my dad was calling my name and I thought I was going crazy 'cause I thought it was in my head... Heyy, man, dont laugh. That happened at work the other day.. Plus I kept thinking I saw someone walking up to me and it turned out nobody was there..... ♥ ~two words one choice no regrets~