no one carries your definition of a friend. and in our case, the friendship was never mutual. i always sacrificed a bit more than you did, worked harder in order to keep it fresh. you quoted me out of context and twisted my words when you knew my intentions were never malicious. and yet you burdened me with your egotistical, self-centered ramblings and complaints. you were inconsiderate, spoiled, dishonest, selfish, mean and neglected your role as a friend. i do not understand how i forgive so easily. a drunken slow dance to All Apologies should not make up for the two years of hell you put me through. i am too tired of holding on to hate, anger, bitterness and envy. i want to free myself of everything negative and anything too heavy to handle. (a light mind, not soft, but weightless. and i swear, i really feel it this time.)