Paradox

Listening to: wet sand -rhcp
I have never felt so confused. I also have never understood so much. I am breaking away because I need to know that I can do so whenever I desire to. Note: It's not running away. If I do not possess the courage, I asked, will you do the deed for me? To which he responded, how do you mean? I will stay until it is finally mutual. Unless I eventually stay put and succumb to everything that I despise and find meaningless just because it is easier that way. I am hoping the latter never happens. Doubt, of whatever kind, can be ended in action alone. My shadow side so amplified Keeps coming back dissatisfied Elementary son but it's so... My love affair with everywhere Was innocent why do you care Someone start the car Time to go... You're the best I know My sunny side has up and died I'm betting that when we collide The universe will shift into a low The travesties that we have seen Are treating me like Benzedrine Automatic laughter from a pro My, what a good day for a, walk outside I'd like to get to know you a little better, baby, God knows that I really tried My, what a good day For a take out bride I'd like to say we did it for the better of I saw you there so unaware Those hummingbirds all in your hair Elementary, son, but it's so The disrepair of Norma Jean Could not compare to your routine Balarama beauty going toe to toe My, what a good day Just to let it slide I'd like to say we did it for the better of I thought about it and I brought it out I'm motivated by the lack of doubt I'm consecrated but I'm not devout The mother, the father, the daughter, yeah Right on the verge, just one more dose I'm traveling from coast to coast My theory isn't perfect, but it's close I'm almost there, why should I care My heart is hurting when I share Someone open up and let it show My, what a good day for a walk outside I'd like to think we did it for the better of I thought about it and I brought it out I'm motivated by the lack of doubt I'm consecrated, but I'm not devout The mother, the father, the daughter- Oh You don't form in the wet sand, You don't form at all- Whoa You don't form in the wet sand, I do- Yeah...
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i understand this.

you've got the smarts, i don't see the latter happening for a gal like you.
oh and what is this entry about? are you okay? is this a ryan thing? love you. -sara
[Anonymous (70.80.152.99)]
fuck i just remembered that i didn't call you back after i finished work last night. i'm sorry i'm the worst friend alive.. how was scott's party? did you end up going with silka? fuck cristina i suck so much i'm so sorry. -s
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