I think Im feeling much better. Like a weight has been lifted from my back, you know? Countless times Ive tried to renew that which has been broken, but Ive finally come to the realization that I cant. I cant put myself in the same position countless times. I cant expect there to be any difference in any aspects of our lives together. I am seeing now that I am fine with that. I kept on because I wanted the chance for things to remain civil. For the hopes that we'd all regain some sort of friendship. But I see now that my options are: Best Friend or Worst Enemy. I guess we've all chosen. I dont hate anyone. Im not mad. Inspite of all this petty dramatic mess. I cant bear the weight of any of this anymore. This has bothered me for over a year, wether it has been noticed or not, and I cant. I cant let it weight me down anymore. So, Im releasing it. Im letting it go. And even now, my heart feels lighter than ever before.