Ive grown so accustomed to the noise, the togetherness twenty four seven. Ive grown so use to the laughter, the smiles, and the cigarette smoke. Its such a remote change from the usual to be alone tonight. I think its the earliest Ive ever made it home since I turned 18. I miss everyone so much. Im really, really trying. I just need to keep swimming, swimming, swimming. Everything will work out just fine. I can be this person. I can.