I don't know, maybe this is an indirect note to Kelly because I'm too lame to be personal about it. So like, I had something on my mind and I felt like getting it out in someway. The secret: A little crush on my friend. I tell Erika. Erika emails the friend. Somehow in talking to Erika about the friend, I find out she did so and I have her tell me what she said. I'm worried about what the friend thinks about me now, so I Email her explaining that it's not all what it sounded like. And I haven't spoken to her yet. Now in all my shyness, I don't even feel comfortable with looking at her, and I have to tomorrow morning at something-till-eight. Personally, it doesn't feel like a big deal for someone to know you "like" them or whatever, it's just this is different. It feels like it's going to be a bigger deal to her and on top of that she's one of my bestfriends. I have this friend, Lisa, who when I found out she liked me, I felt slightly ill and uncomfortable being around her for a while. I just know that must be what'll be going through her mind now and it'll probably never be quite the same. I'm afraid that maybe I'll end up avoiding her, fearing some type of confrontation. I also feel wrong for feeling like that about a friend, putting them in such an undesired situation. A situation I'd never want to be in unless I felt the same, which as far back as I can remember only happened once. -If Only It Were An Entry About Cartoons