Yesterday, I saw the most beautiful thing I've ever seen in my entire life. I wish I had a camera, but I don't feel that film could do it justice. I'm not sure exactly how I can explain it. It happened when I was on my way to take an exam yesterday. In my last entry, I didn't mention it because I just wasn't sure entirely how to say it. I started to, but I just didn't know how to put into words completely yet. Also, I had other things on my mind when I was writing... Anyhow, I was walking to my class. I was pissed off because I had to walk all the way in the pouring rain, as I mentioned in another entry. Things weren't looking good. I mean, I had to take an exam in a class that I had been skipping to smoke instead. On top of that, I had to walk in the hardest rain I've had to walk in since I've been here. It was just shitty..lightning..thunder..and even a little hail. So I was walking briskly through this hell, thinking about how much everything sucked when, suddenly, as though something more powerful was at work, the rain began to slow. The clouds began to clear and suddenly it wasn't looking so dark and gloomy out. I started looking around in disbelief. I felt like I was being tricked. It was like I was somehow being duped by nature to think that everything was okay so it could surprise me and somehow get shittier out. But the weather continued to get better...it continued to astound me. It was in one of those moments when the wind stopped blowing and the cool mist of the air became soothing. One of those moments when the world stops for a while and shows you just how amazing life really is. Thats when I saw it. The tree. I am not sure what kind it was, but it was amazing. It was one of those trees that make springtime the best time to be alive. It had large pink and white flowers blooming all over it, screaming out to us saying "I'm alive. And I am beautiful." The rain had knocked off many pettles and they littered the ground with a glorius pink tint beneath the branches. It was dark enough out that the white had a blue hue to it that can only be seen for a short time when the day is slowly morphing into night. The sky and the earth came together for just a moment and exploded with color. The greens of the various leaves and grasses around somehow seemed more vibrant as well. My words cannot even come close to explaining this phenomenon. Our language is too false, too inaccurate, too dull to explain such an event. No word in any tongue, no fleeting phrase of the human verbal ability could encapsulate something so resplendent. I think thats about as close to heaven as I'll ever be. Not to say that such a heaven exists, but thats about as close an environment that I can imagine to be like heaven. I was nearly late to my exam because I stopped there, under that tree, where I wish I could stay forever. It was such a beauty that for just a moment, nature and I could flow together. My heart was in rythm with the wind. Had I stayed any longer, the magesty would surely have made me cry. I never want to forget that moment. It was just what I needed, when I needed it. I wish that feeling could last forever... There is a power, a hidden majesty just behind things. A world that exists just under the physical, behind all of the cosmetics of our environment. There is something there and its a rare moment when it can be seen, but when it reveals itself, it is worth savoring. Thats where beauty comes from. And when we can quiet all of our foolish vanities, all of our predjudices, all of the stupid shit that we distract ourselves with, we can catch a fading glimpse of how astonishing the world really is. And thats all I can say right now.