I'm getting the message that people are still clueless about Friday night....stupid people.....but its not my business to tell..... When people say that they hate liars and they are a liar themselves, does that mean that they hate themself or are they a hypocrit? Because I do hate liars and I hate how I have to live a lie now, pretending everything is ok when its not..... I know that people around me are unhappy....like my friends are unhappy and they deny it....I would die first than see my friends be sad or hurt....I've seen it with Chelsea and it killed me because I felt so useless to her..... I look around me now and I can see that people have somebody in their life or they just lost somebody or something went on between them.....I see it happening to my friends....you can't see it happening outside, they would rather be shot down than admit it....people and their stupid pride!!....I see my friends happy, I see my friends hurt, I see them sad, betrayed, glorious and everything that happens in relationships....I sit sometimes and wonder if I could be that happy....but when I start thinking about it, I start thinking about the pain and the trauma.....I don't think I could live with that.....I once heard that's its better to be alone, you can't get hurt if you're alone....but people say you won't grow if you don't experience pain....I have experienced it.....I've experienced more than anybody should have too....I've had my heart broken, I've buried my mother, I've experienced disappointment....I'm not a super hero people....I'm human....I experience feelings.... i'm human