So, yesturday, I was sick, and I get a phone call from Dallan....nothing different from his usual phone calls.....anyway, he reads me this poem.....it was called "Before I went to bed"...... TALK ABOUT FREAKING SOMEONE OUT!!! I hung up on him because the poem was good, but freaky..... 15 minuets later, he shows up on my door step.... I have had it!! We go outside to his car and I rip into him.....I tell him that I probably will never feel what he does towards me.....I told him I was flattered, but he's hitting on me way too hard.....I told him that I still heart strings attatched to Daniel and I probably will for the rest of my life.....I told him there might be a slight chance for him in the future, but not at the moment.....I want a chance to get over Daniel...... I also told him I wasn't going out with him because I didn't want to get hurt.....and I didn't want to hurt him either......it wouldn't be fair.....plus I didn't want to have to lie to the both of us....lie to him for just feeling sorry and give him his 2 days of excitement only to have to break his heart literally because I was lying to myself.....I did that with Barrett and boy....do I feel stupid.... Its really weird.....during the school year, I didn't like Daniel very much.....but now that its summer, I can't stop thinking of him.....its not fair, ya know?......Dallan is an awesome kid, and I shot him down..... In the words of THE ATARIS "girls are F***ING evil!...." OH JUST RIP OUT MY EVIL HEART AND LEAVE ME TO A LONELY LIFE!!!!! I'm so darn confused now.....most guys I know only want a girl to get action....but Dallan....I think you get the picture..... WHY, OH GOD? WHY ME?!!