i am so exhausted. i didnt get any sleep last night because i was looking up stuff for my project in culture and diversity. its a huge project, its part of our final grade, and i really want to get a good grade on it. i actually thought about it all day today, and i realized that i dont care AS MUCH as i used to about my grades. i used to because if i got all A's on my next report card or grade sheet or whatever, my mom would tell my uncle (whom im favorite niece of...he bought me a car and helped with the cell phone stuff) about it and he was going to pay for a part of my new york trip in the spring. but guess what, the new york trip was for choir. woo choir! oh thats right....im not in it anymore. well gee. but now my parents are saying that if i get A's then i might be able to keep the new york money for myself. i hope thats true. so im nervous because our first dance competition is next weekend. and yeah i kinda wasnt ready for that? i dont feel like im ready. maybe im just nervous or whatever. but i dont know. well i need to go study now.