its the worst when its done right in front of me. its like having this huge stick thing just go through my chest. thats actually what it felt like, too. i was having fun, being sweet and being just all around happy then it just started happening and i swear my world stopped, but it wasnt a good thing. it just stopped and its like i got snapped back into reality. its like my head was saying "linda shut up stop being happy, look at what i can do, i can make your best friends hurt you." that was just really low. i really dont care at all but when its right in front of me, i mean does it make you feel better when i cry? because if it does i'd like to feel better about myself too, so maybe i should make you cry? shouldnt be too hard, since i have this knack for accidentally hurting people's feelings. all i have to do is say the right thing and you'll start flat out bawling. so please dont get me started okay? im tired of doing the whole "oh okay, its okay, i'll forgive you then in 2 weeks you can end up doing it again and making me cry again." nah, that got old real quick, i think im ready to fight back. yeah its the same one as my xanga, so you can read either/or. there's nothing different about either of them.