maaan, if there is one thing i absolutely hate, its crying. i mean yeah it makes you feel so much better afterwards, but the process of it, is just not somethingi enjoy so much. and im really getting kind of tired of it, ya know? its like, when am i going to stop the whole crying thing? i just hate it. you know how people say "if life was easy, it would be boring"? well i really dont care if it was boring or not, i could find a way to make it interesting, just as long as it was EASY. i mean seriously. you only go around the circle once, dont you want to make it worthwhile and fun instead of hard and stressful and complicated? thats just the way i see it though. i dont know. maybe im just blabbing on about stupid crap. it just pisses me off. and yes i've thought about ending my life, but then im like well, what if it doesnt work? or well wait, maybe it will get better. and does it? haha, no. definitely not.