sooo basically.....here's how it all goes down. today's kelly's birthday...right? and i had this cute idea planned and everything. i was going to invite him to my house and we would make a pizza together. as in like, put the sauce and the cheese and any toppings on it. well i had a list of all the ingredients, and nobody ever went to wal-mart in my family. i would have gone myself...but i have no money. i had to fill my car up on saturday, so thats where most of it went. but i still managed to save enough to buy kelly's gift. so i figured hey, at least i would have that. well first of all, my family went to wal-mart saturday, when i was gone...and they didnt buy my stuff. second of all, nobody is bothering to help me out tonight, my mom's all "oh too bad, i'm making ribs tonight." so i was like HEY kelly LOVES ribs, he can just come eat dinner here. well my mom goes "no, i only am making enough for like 4 people" (and there's 5 in my family). so i'm screwed. and after school today i went to go buy his gift, and i made the damn lady scan my card 3 times...all 3 times it got denied because i didnt have enough money in my account. so not only do i not have a dinner for him, but i dont have a gift or even a fucking card. and i cant eve afford to take him out to dinner. because i dont have any money. now shall we talk about why i dont have any money? okay. I DONT HAVE ANY FUCKING TIME TO WORK! i'm at play practice EVERY day till 5...actually now it will be till 6...then i go to dance classes or dance practice. i feel like i'm being punished for having hobbies. my parents dont want to help. i cant mow the lawn again because i just mowed it and its all nice and neat and shit. and i used that money to pay kelly's brother back for paying for me 2 weeks ago for the dinner party with my friends. i want a job, no i NEED a job, i just cant get one. and i feel horrible. because its his birthday. and i have nothing. all i have is bloodshot, puffy eyes and a red face and a bunch of kleenexes and smeared eyeliner running down my face.