yeah, im not gunna lie about it. i feel depressed. but not the kind thats like "oh, i hate the world, i am now depressed". nah, i feel like really depressed. like all i want to do is cry, and thats not fun at all. i hate it. :( boo...hoo....hoo.... so yeah no party tonight. that really bummed me out. it felt great to add to my already bummed-outness. i couldnt think of a good way to get over there. my friend called earlier, the one throwing the party. paige- "linda? where are you, im coming to pick you up" me- "what? paige, i cant go, its impossible." paige- "i know...but i dont want to be the only girl there! ug, you suck. actually no, your parents suck" me- "yeah i know they do, they piss me off too. i cant do anything." and that was that. i want to go more than anything. its just not possible. but like i said, i wouldnt know anyone other than paige...well she said the nudist (chris lol) would be there, but i barely talked to him, and mark wouldnt be getting there till later cuz of work, so whatever. i get to miss out on the fun. yippee. our first REAL dance competition is tomorrow. i have to be at school at 7:45 AM, and we dont get back till 7:00 PM. anyone got any plans for tomorrow night? im free. i hope we do well. im really nervous. i still have to sew my pants. i'll get to that later though, its not like im doing anything tonight, right? hide and seek came out today to theaters. i really want to see that movie. it actually looks kinda good. and im a sucker for any form of scary movie. i absolutely cannot wait until the grudge comes out on dvd. and the ring 2....get hyped! march 18th. i am a The Ring obsessed person, seriously. anyway, the problem with hide and seek is that its rated r, and im only 16 so they wont let me in. my mom was like psh no i am not taking you to see that movie, i will be so scared! i was like damn. but then mark came along to save the day.... he was like well maybe i can take you (cuz he's 18, remember?) and so yeah. i dont know thoug. maybe i'll go maybe i wont. but for right now im going to end this entry, because this is pretty long. and i can feel my carpel tunnel kicking in. the whole typing thing is starting to hurt my hands again. woo me. oh yeah speaking of hurt, i hurt my leg today in dance...again. which is really worrying me for tomorrow. what if i cant do anything? oh god, that would suck. oh yeah im on the lyrical dance team now. i cant remember if i had already posted that or not. that really means alot to me though, im super excited. also, i passed my written driver's test yesterday. it was hella great, and hella easy. all i have to do now is the driving portion. then its license time for lindy. hell yes.