i fucked up so bad today... I got into a car accident. I went shopping. And when i was returning home i ran a red light. And hit another car. It was totally my FAULT. I have no good reason either. I didn't go into shock, have a heart ached, or suddenly went blind. I just didn't notice the light went red. Worse is i can't remember if i saw the red light and decided not to stop. shit. my car is so messed up. my dad told me that i've put the family in trouble. that i fuck me over. now my insurance is going to be high. damn. it was just a bad day. I'm ok. I don't have any real injuries and i'm sore in certain areas. I just can't believe i did that. i was talking to my sister and she told me that i always putting more stress and depression in my life. i'm afarid it is ture. i've been calling jon, and visiting him even after he told me he wanted to be with Jess, or that girl from wisconsin. I think he's being nice to me just to be nice. i really need to just leave him alone.