i hate dealing with all the ups and downs. today was just shocking and emotional... it's like i live in hell. people tell me read this and do this then things will get better. no. nothing gets better. it's been down hill since high school. i'm not happy. THE event of the day is totally UNREAL...it's like out of a movie, or a novel. i was walking to the book store by myself... this guy came up to me and wanted directions. turns out this guy was going to a baby shower...got lost. he asked me my name, and told me i was pretty. we drove around in his car, and we have a date tomorrow. this guy is from PERU. his english is a little rough. and well like i can't pronouce his name or even his spell it. i can't even remember it....oh god. it's so werid. today was just a werid day. i don't want to date him. i want to be alone, and i want a job. i'm job searching tomorrow. please someone give me a job...