i feel bad i'm eating a lot. and i think i've gained weight but i don't want to know John came over to watch some movies. After the movie i was like john you should go home but he didn't want to so i ended up sleeping in the same bed as him. well, i regret wanting more and more from him. i can't stop myself. what i'am supposed to do? i can bearly control myself...and i can't control him